Life takes shape depending on how you look at it....like a glass half empty can also be seen as a glass half full. Yeah...cliche, so i heard. But its true, I mean God Almighty Allah....Tuhan Yang Maha Adil, di dalam dugaan Dia akan berikan kebahagiaan....cuma terpulanglah kepada kita untuk menilai yg manakah yg hendak kita beratkan. Most people (including me sometimes) tend to think a lot about the bad things in life, forgetting about all the good things. Though if you ask me.....i think we have equal number of good and bad things in life. Truthfully, I always thought like I am stuck in Klang, I am not moving on, like I will always be in that static position....up to a point yg I feel I just wanna quit and get away from everythg. I regret not reapplying to Kajang, though I know seryesly Hospital Kajang tu quite teruk. I miss home so much...I miss home everyday. I miss having ppl to hug me wen I had a bad day, I just feel like being in someone's arm, crying my heart out at someone's shoulder. Home has felt like my heaven on earth. I seryesly miss my ummi and ayah.....I thk I've become more manja n mengada2 lately nie....i pun tak paham..maybe its the mid twenties crisis. I still have a lot to learn la wen it comes to bein an adult. Still adapting to adult life...it hard.
Saying all that will actually made me sound so ungrateful...if I were to list down all the good things in my life right now. Because the reality is...I am really blessed and lucky person. I have so many nice sweet people around me. Like on the 3rd day of raya...I have to do morning review, a friend of mine who is post call btw send me back to Kajang though she lived in Subang. I mean, who does that? She is not even my bestfriend, we hardly knew each other, I only went out with her once to watch 'Grown ups' and shopping. So sweet rite? I am seryesly blessed, I always get help no matter what. I am lucky in that sense. Not to mention, in Klang there are 2 of my bestfriend there to be there for me no matter what. Though I am a bit of a drama queen, they are always there. I still have time to hangout with them. I get to see them almost every week. If I am in Kajang, only God knows wen we'll be able to spend time with each other. Though I am far from family, I still managed to go back at least 2 weeks once. Truthfully, though HTAR felt like a bad choice altogether considering it is situated in a ghetto city, the work politics there are overwhelming n the ppl there are beyond bitchy.....maybe Hazim was right, it is the right place to be for now. I had fun learning how to be a doctor there...working life is kinda exciting. I can't wait to learn how to properly do a scan on pregnant mothers n be posted in the labour room.
Next week, I'll be posted in 2A a ward that is conquered by an ice-queen and her annoying little pest. I seryesly don't ever wanna be posted in that ward....but it is just something that everybody have got to go thru. So, please do pray for me.....hopefully I'll survive all the torture or just maybe.....the ice-queen "might" like me...hehehhhh besar btol cita2 tuh...huhuhu
This is the pic of my whole family on my paternal side (minus my Kak Aida and Abg Sarimi cz they spend the raya in Kelantan).
so happy to hv gathered everyone together like this
This raya I dah start bagi duit raya...adehhh felt so old lah.....dah tak boleh dah join my bro n sis kira2 duit raya sapa yg paling bnyak...huhuhu.....Yesterday, I dapat jumpa anak-anak my cousins yg sgt2 comel tuh...seryesly lepas tension after dapat main2 dgn diorang. So yeah, with all that being sed, guess life are not that bad. Infact...I am very blessed by Allah swt....Alhamdullilah....I hope happiness will find its way to me soon. =))) *wishing hard*
ummi and ayah...one day i hope to find what ugys have found in each other
yeah...we are adorable...i know *winks*
That's all for now....Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin
Hope that ugys will have a great Aidilfitri wherever you are.
Love. Eat and Pray...haha yeah I can't wait to watch that movie =)
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