Assalammuaalaikum
Last few weeks, I heard somebody was talking bad about me behind my back. I mean I know, what do you expect kan...people have mouth they talk, they don't really care if they got their facts wrong. But that very person, I duno, I just don't ecpect that she would be in any part of this. So I just feel like I am somewhat back-stabbed. Feeling that, I just easily group up all of this girl and her close friends together and just decided that I cant trust n I dun want to be close to them. Then I go the next few days hating and feeling angry at them, saying some stuff I myself regret, cz for all I know...I have never had any problem with this people, I've never hated them, they are not my close friend but I was seriously okay with them. They are just neutral people to me an acquaintance. I neither hate or love. When I go around hating them after knowing that, I just felt very childish. I mean why??? Why should I act like this....this isnt High School. Okay, so I know these people aren't to be trusted. So just move on right. Its not as if I have done anythg to them to deserve this kinda treatment, let Allah swt punish them. Who am I to say what they did is wrong or right. For all I know, maybe I am just as disgusting as them or maybe worst.
What's important is what I am in Allah swt eyes. Does not matter if they wanna talk, let them talk. I have to improve myself. Keep on ameliorating myself so that they will one day see the truth, what matters is between me and Allah swt. What for am I saving this hatred, it is only gonna stained my heart. I don't need that. I forgive them for what they've done. I'm not a perfect person, I've made mistakes, but Allah swt is always guiding me and He has gave me a great gift, that is my life and all the people that I love in it as perfectly imperfect as it is. And I am happy. Content as I've never imagine before. Alhamdullilah for your generosity Ya Allah. You are truly kind. I will continue cherishing this life, be happy and free from all this hatred. This is not how I wana live my days. As long as I know who I can trust, and who truly care, it is more than enough for me. Enough for me to live happily. Thank you Allah for your blessings.
~*spread love*~
Let go of your grudges. Let the bitterness die tonight. Make a decision today that it's time to move on. And begin again. New, this time. Never forget that what has passed you by was never meant to befall you. And what has befallen you, was never meant to pass you by. Know that some times Allah withholds from you, in order to give you something better. Keep your heart focused on Him, and He will take care of the rest. And remember : you will stumble, but that's part of the path. Keep going. Keep rising, and refuse to give up. ~ Yasmin Mogahed
Wallahualam
