Ummi's Day

HAPPY UMMI'S DAY TO MY UMMI =) <3

XOXO

Love ya to the max. Timasih sebab layan kerenah saye nie.

My private space

I know... I havent been blogging much lately.. Reason was my laptop was always with Hazim n no matter how many times. I've tried to tell him to bring his own laptop... He seems to ignore it totally...I thk he prefer having  my laptop as it  able to function to all of his basic needs. Plus sometimes my broadband internet just too slow for my patience... So unless I wana blog from my phone but sgt tak best cz iphone nyer keyboard kecik... Hahaha maybe this is a sign for Ipad 2 ?? Huahua... Alasan!!

Its been a while now that I really wanna talk about music....I may not be as fanatic about music as I used to. Maybe I become more matured, not so emotionally attached as I used to. Maybe....just maybe. You know, I used to be this girl who correlate her life 100% to the songs....and when I can't express my feelings thru blogging, diaries (yeah, i used to be that diary type of girl *told ya i'm such a nerd*)...i will turn to music, music used to be my salvation....thru songs i express my emotions. It used to be my best way to communicate. I never missed out on Rick Dees Top 40, i even listen to the repeat. I will follow American's Idol attentively. That was then, now I find that I only listen to selected songs and I'll play it over and over again...i hardly ever listen to the radio. I only listen to them if I was in a car going somewhere...or from a movie or a drama that I watch. Even so, the point that I try to point out here is...tho I am not passionate about music as I used to....I still find that music is the easiest way for anyone to channel out their deepest thoughts, feeling, emotions...at least I still think so.

I've come to realize this as I was assisting in the OT (operation teater) the other day and the only sound that is keeping me awake other than the sound of my mo/specialist asking for scapel, suction, gauze, curette, chucky, k-wire etc etc etc.....is the sound of the radio. I smiled to myself as I realized that I can still correlate to the songs and its lyrics...how it moved me inside. I think sometimes when words failed you, its easier to choose a song that is best to describe how you feel and let it out....it kinda help in a way...I love music, I seriously do...tho my voice kinda suck...I cant even play any instrument, and everyone knows how bad I am with name of songs or its artist unless it is my all time fav. Just glad to know that that part of me havent died yet, I still find my salvation in music...apelah yg i membebel ni kan. I pun dunno where I am going with this since I thought about blogging about it for such a very long time I kinda forget the whole layout...anyway asalkan the point is there kan...huhu peace out!

Full moon sucks!

Today I'm just sad and and dissappointed. It seem like eventho I tried to suck it in watever it is that hv hurt me. Even tho i tried, at last other ppl just dont really hv that patience to put up with me. That is the most hurting n sad thg about today.

What is inside my head lately

You noe lately I am just obsess thinking about how all these specialist have the will to continue in this profession that I think I hate (at times) for years.....seriously, I am still wondering how to continue working from day to day. I am seriously amaze watching all this hardworking people. I sometimes wonder what get them going. I know everyone says no job is nice cz working itself is not nice. But these people are passionate. How can I be like them?


to be cont...

"PERFECT MOMENTS"

This post is inspired by somebody very dear to me who believe in a perfect moment like these...

Okay,  so you remember how when you were a little girl...you imagine this life is like a fairy tale where all you have to do is just be this really perfect, nice and sweet person and look pretty until one day your super charming prince come to swept you from your feet. and you know the unique thing is all of these couples will always have their "PERFECT MOMENTS" you know where everything just fall to places, where everything just seem so wonderful almost dream like....moments such as these....

You get what I mean right, moments when the prince realize that there's something there...perfect moments where you just expect him to kiss her, say I LOVE YOU and that kinda stuff. But, funny thing is...if you look closely, the prince never did kiss the princess or say the 3 words at  all of these "perfect moments". Interesting right? Yeah...I noticed this after my fren told me how finding that "perfect moment" is important for one person to express how one feel about someone. I have to say, I think it is rather sweet and cute for someone to think that way....just like this cute, vulnerable bunny rabbit who just don't realize how perfectly naive and innocent it is....that you just feel like you want to give it a hug and protect it closely. I personally dream of that too...that "perfect moment" where it caught you by surprise and a sudden realization of how much love you have for someone. It is just seriously sweet, like over the TOP sweet. But even fairy tales show us that life aren't always beautiful....there's Ursula, Gaston and all the town folks, and there's also that old lady who wanna look pretty. And...in all of these fairy tales....like I said before, they only managed to express their feelings after something nearly took their loved ones away. Why does it have to be that way? Why does it have to come only after something bad happen? Why is it that even in fairy tales...it shows how human won't fight for something until they are about to lose it. Yeah, you'll never know what you have till you lost it , interesting isn't it...to noticed this. I guess what fairy tales have shown me is that even "perfect moment" don't come more than once. We ourself have to create that perfect moment, fight for what we want and create our own path of happiness...well I guess, I think I've left  all you dreamers out there with something to think about.....live your dreams love. =)

10 April 2011

So as we all know I went to Bruno Mars concert last Sunday. It was really amazing. He is really a talented artist. He know how to get his audience moving. Truthfully, it was a really lively concert. I had a great fun! Hope to  go to his concert again if he ever come back to Malaysia ^^v

 the crowd waiting for Mr. Bruno

Bruno Mars!!! (this is the best pic I have of him, darn!! I'm so short!!)

and..I'm glad to be spending it with my amazing bestfriend

* favorite moment*

I have to say...my favorite moment of the night was when Bruno sang "Count on me". Something about it kinda touch my soul you know, maybe the lyrics really meant something to me. And when he was singing it, the whole hall was singing it together with him putting their hands in the air swaying to the beautiful melody. Like the song actually feel like something living, something so real. What's make it more beautiful I guess was because I was standing there with my bestfriend, and "Count on me" are like our friendship song. So standing there with him just make it feel so much more meaningful than it is to anybody else I think. Like we are dedicating the song to each other. I almost feel like saying "Bestfriends forever Hazim, BFFE always!!!!" Tho all of us know how i think about FOREVER right? Anyway, I think no words can really describe how meaningful and special that moment was to me. It is definitely gonna be that moment that you capture in your mind and live for as long as you want it to live. Yeah ! one of my most special moment indeed!!! =)