Its been a while now that I really wanna talk about music....I may not be as fanatic about music as I used to. Maybe I become more matured, not so emotionally attached as I used to. Maybe....just maybe. You know, I used to be this girl who correlate her life 100% to the songs....and when I can't express my feelings thru blogging, diaries (yeah, i used to be that diary type of girl *told ya i'm such a nerd*)...i will turn to music, music used to be my salvation....thru songs i express my emotions. It used to be my best way to communicate. I never missed out on Rick Dees Top 40, i even listen to the repeat. I will follow American's Idol attentively. That was then, now I find that I only listen to selected songs and I'll play it over and over again...i hardly ever listen to the radio. I only listen to them if I was in a car going somewhere...or from a movie or a drama that I watch. Even so, the point that I try to point out here is...tho I am not passionate about music as I used to....I still find that music is the easiest way for anyone to channel out their deepest thoughts, feeling, emotions...at least I still think so.
I've come to realize this as I was assisting in the OT (operation teater) the other day and the only sound that is keeping me awake other than the sound of my mo/specialist asking for scapel, suction, gauze, curette, chucky, k-wire etc etc etc.....is the sound of the radio. I smiled to myself as I realized that I can still correlate to the songs and its lyrics...how it moved me inside. I think sometimes when words failed you, its easier to choose a song that is best to describe how you feel and let it out....it kinda help in a way...I love music, I seriously do...tho my voice kinda suck...I cant even play any instrument, and everyone knows how bad I am with name of songs or its artist unless it is my all time fav. Just glad to know that that part of me havent died yet, I still find my salvation in music...apelah yg i membebel ni kan. I pun dunno where I am going with this since I thought about blogging about it for such a very long time I kinda forget the whole layout...anyway asalkan the point is there kan...huhu peace out!
