Madhouse

How's life lately? Life is a mad house....

Medical is a madhouse....

I'm starting medical full gear in 8B (male general medical ward)....just crazy. In HTAR, we have ventilated patient in our own ward itself. Yes people, we have our very own ICU in the ward!!!! It's crazy. So, our subacute cubicle is actually an acute cubicle in another hospital since our acute has become our very own ICU. I'm seryesly tired lah...tired of taking blood, tired of running, tired of writing, tired of pt complaining............tired of clerking, tired of inserting branula................seryesssslyyyyy..................................................i'm tireddddddd. Since this is my blog, I'm allowed to say this again and again.....I'm tireddddddddddddddddddddddddddd. All I think about is sleep, food dun bother me so much anymore, I have been working without lunch for almost 2 weeks now despite all the climbing up and down the 8th floor. Soon I'll be losing my boobs and butts...uwaaaaaaaaaaaa this job is turning me into an ugly woman seryeslyyy.....and I'll be doin my FIRST medical call on MONDAY!!! I am damn scared..........seryes scared of wat will happen.....please YA ALLAH....may everything just be okay.....gimme strength, courage and spirit to face all of this life obstacles YA ALLAH....for I do it only for you.....

Hey Light...

you are new, you are simple and easy....
you are not complicated....
you shine directly at what u yearn for.... =)

JuSt A dReaM

i just love this video, this song...

have to say, this time the original singer lose

alien world

I cannot bare it lah...I'm just so sad....with work, with life...i hate! Tonight I just can't stop crying.....

*depress*

Hey Past....

you are gonna hurt me again, aren't you?

my SECRET

truthfully.....bila tgk org kawen, org mengandung, beranak (tho terasa sgt takut), and tgk org pegi mana2 bawak hubby and baby.....I pun terasa like i want it too. Like...eeii, mesti seronok kan, diorang nampak happy jer....tho i know, truth is...having family mane de easy...susah kowt. nak jaga suami, jaga anak...nak jaga diri sendiri. tapi tak kisahla....cz they look so complete. so settled.....for some reason the feeling of having all that to me, is nice. anyways......tho i ckp about all this, who are we kidding...to have all that, i have to have the feeling to love, to trust, to care about those XYs, we all know that i'm not very keen of all that. I'm still not very keen to open up my heart and I'm quite happy being in a secure situation that i'm now....oh well, i guess let's just let the time and destiny decide....