truthfully.....bila tgk org kawen, org mengandung, beranak (tho terasa sgt takut), and tgk org pegi mana2 bawak hubby and baby.....I pun terasa like i want it too. Like...eeii, mesti seronok kan, diorang nampak happy jer....tho i know, truth is...having family mane de easy...susah kowt. nak jaga suami, jaga anak...nak jaga diri sendiri. tapi tak kisahla....cz they look so complete. so settled.....for some reason the feeling of having all that to me, is nice. anyways......tho i ckp about all this, who are we kidding...to have all that, i have to have the feeling to love, to trust, to care about those XYs, we all know that i'm not very keen of all that. I'm still not very keen to open up my heart and I'm quite happy being in a secure situation that i'm now....oh well, i guess let's just let the time and destiny decide....
