It is already 7.30 am...the little voice in my head keep on repeating 'Syafiqah, kate nak pegi beli nasi lemak!!@#*%@!!'. I seriously dun understand why it is so mad, I have no mood to go down and walk to that nasi lemak stand...besides, I wasn't THAT hungry *stomach growling*...uh oh! what the heck!!!!...I am not in the mood okay. I just wana curl up in this bed where there's no worries, no trouble, no drama...just comfort, warmness and cozyness...hmm, I like this feeling...so safe. Blanket, hold me tightly please...I don't wana wake up, EVER!!!!
...tick tock...tick tock...tick tock...
So here I am, curling up in bed contemplating with my past, present and future. To tell u the truth, I really hate facing these 3 all at the same. But somehow, they always like to pick the same time to say 'Hi Syafiqah! U Suck!!!'. Okay okay, I noe guys...I messed up okay. Here I've wrote each of u a note...
Dear Past,
I am really sorry that I follow my intuition, my instinct and whatever else you like to call it. I should think more rationally, I should have listen to my brain instead of my heart. I should have leave and run away as far as I can when I still had the chance. I shouldn't have had this feeling. I should just put my heart in a cage, put it in a big black box and casts it away. I shouldn't care or spend so much time solving other people problem. I should be more self-centered and conservative. I should have been more focus in my studies. I should have studied really hard. I should add fuel to my passion for medicine instead of pouring it with water. I should be thinking about Ummi and Ayah more often as they are the ones who truly loves me unconditionally. I know I know....I've been walking off the track and I am trying to be on that right track again. I'm sorry for all the things that you regret, I know you have hold so many grudges against me and that I am always making u feel disappointed. Truly dear past, I am sorry...
I am really sorry that I follow my intuition, my instinct and whatever else you like to call it. I should think more rationally, I should have listen to my brain instead of my heart. I should have leave and run away as far as I can when I still had the chance. I shouldn't have had this feeling. I should just put my heart in a cage, put it in a big black box and casts it away. I shouldn't care or spend so much time solving other people problem. I should be more self-centered and conservative. I should have been more focus in my studies. I should have studied really hard. I should add fuel to my passion for medicine instead of pouring it with water. I should be thinking about Ummi and Ayah more often as they are the ones who truly loves me unconditionally. I know I know....I've been walking off the track and I am trying to be on that right track again. I'm sorry for all the things that you regret, I know you have hold so many grudges against me and that I am always making u feel disappointed. Truly dear past, I am sorry...
*****
Dear Present,
Truly, u are my favourite as you are my best friend. You are the one that I have every power to control right now. You are with me everyday, you are always there for me and I get to see you a lot. I know I have done something with Past that is affecting you right now and that you are really sad watching me waste so much of my time on things that will just end up in vain. All of those effort, all of those tears, all those time worrying. I am sorry, as you are the one that have to watch me throw my life away. I am really sorry that I spent so much time holding on to the past and worrying about the future that I don't appreciate you, or make you feel a little bit more valuable. I promise that I will change. I know my priority now, I am gonna move on. I am gonna concentrate on treating you right, I will fight for you so that Past will not be dissapointed with me and Future will have faith that I am gonna promise it something good..no great..no EXTRAORDINARY!!! Yes, I promise you this Present...I am gonna make it up to you. I am gonna LOVE my self and my life so that you will be proud of me alright? If I forgot u can always throw rocks at me or something so that I will climb up on the right track again.
Truly, u are my favourite as you are my best friend. You are the one that I have every power to control right now. You are with me everyday, you are always there for me and I get to see you a lot. I know I have done something with Past that is affecting you right now and that you are really sad watching me waste so much of my time on things that will just end up in vain. All of those effort, all of those tears, all those time worrying. I am sorry, as you are the one that have to watch me throw my life away. I am really sorry that I spent so much time holding on to the past and worrying about the future that I don't appreciate you, or make you feel a little bit more valuable. I promise that I will change. I know my priority now, I am gonna move on. I am gonna concentrate on treating you right, I will fight for you so that Past will not be dissapointed with me and Future will have faith that I am gonna promise it something good..no great..no EXTRAORDINARY!!! Yes, I promise you this Present...I am gonna make it up to you. I am gonna LOVE my self and my life so that you will be proud of me alright? If I forgot u can always throw rocks at me or something so that I will climb up on the right track again.
*****
Dear Future,
I really can't wait to see you, I guess that is why I can't stop thinking about you. To me you are like a box of mysteries that I just can't wait to open. So tempting!. I know you are scared of me, you probably think that I am a stalker for being so obsessed with you. Well, I am NOT! I am just as scared as you do. I am scared of the unseen, the unknown...cause I like things that I know I have a power to control over. I am scared of you Dear Future...sometimes, I wish you could give me a clue on what you have in that box of mysteries for me. I know, you are mad at me because I am not appreciating Present, because it is seriously gonna affect you. I've promise Present that I'll be a better person, I will leave Past and learn whatever I can from it and try to be improve myself for Present. Future, one thing I know...I can't wait to go shopping and travel with you!!! haha...you are always so EXCITING!!!
I really can't wait to see you, I guess that is why I can't stop thinking about you. To me you are like a box of mysteries that I just can't wait to open. So tempting!. I know you are scared of me, you probably think that I am a stalker for being so obsessed with you. Well, I am NOT! I am just as scared as you do. I am scared of the unseen, the unknown...cause I like things that I know I have a power to control over. I am scared of you Dear Future...sometimes, I wish you could give me a clue on what you have in that box of mysteries for me. I know, you are mad at me because I am not appreciating Present, because it is seriously gonna affect you. I've promise Present that I'll be a better person, I will leave Past and learn whatever I can from it and try to be improve myself for Present. Future, one thing I know...I can't wait to go shopping and travel with you!!! haha...you are always so EXCITING!!!
*****
Dearest Life,
I am thankful that Allah swt has given me a chance to taste you. You are truly WONDERFUL...
Dearest Life,
I am thankful that Allah swt has given me a chance to taste you. You are truly WONDERFUL...
Dear Readers
Here's is my 100th post
Appreciate your life, cause you only live in it once
You can't turn back time and change it
Make sure all of us has all the right tablet of life
Live it healthy, Smile and be Happy.
Here's is my 100th post
Appreciate your life, cause you only live in it once
You can't turn back time and change it
Make sure all of us has all the right tablet of life
Live it healthy, Smile and be Happy.
