Everything Happen for a Reason

I just gotta clear my mind...so this is a mind clearing post. I'm scared...for you....REALLY scared. But, I have to be STRONG for you....cz I just have to. This time, I need to be the STRONG POLE....somehow, I always have to be the strong pole. What if I dun want to anymore? What if this time I wana cry my heart out? How bout that? How about, if I wana get angry at you???? What if?

I truly hate this, I hate this A LOT....may Allah give u strength...may Allah protect you always. We can only hope and pray.

Reminder :

Ingat 5 perkara, sebelum 5 perkara

sihat sebelum sakit

muda sebelum tua

kaya sebelum miskin

lapang sebelum sempit

hidup sebelum mati....

Allah Maha Mengetahui, Segala yang berlaku pasti ada hikmah disebaliknya, kita hamba...harus redha dan bertawakal padaNya. Dia Allah s.w.t, Tuhan yang Maha Esa....

Dear Magic Flute

I'm praying for MIRACLES

Forgive me...but I think I am easily bored with things.....

the End is VERY near....

Had just finished my End-Posting Examination.....Phew! OMG...am i allowed to feel relief??? huhu...this means that PRO 3 is the next step and it is officially 3 weeks away. GOSh!!!! takut wohh.....my 5 years of "torture" will soon come to an end with THE MOST DIFFICULT, MOST UNFAIR EXAMINATION promised by our beloved Dean....haiya haiya haiya.....risauuuunyeeeeeeeeeee.

Boleh ke nie????

T_T

Apa2 pun kene lalui jugak kn....so i better be prepared. Nak sediakan bullet banyak2 for that WAR. Wish me luck people!!

GOTTA FIGHT! FIGHT!!!!!

p/s : am I still allowed to watch movie??? =D

You say...

"Soon you'll be leaving me......"

you gotta be joking!

I only choose different place....you seem to be choosing different life...
Who is leaving who? hmm I wonder...

Thanks! a lot!!!

I finally got my answer....

The words from your mouth....

The words that I read from that blog....it says everything...

Thank you...you had me fooled. I bet you must be laughing so hard right now...

While I...I cry my heart out every night. Bet you dunno that...

Yeah, when you love somebody.....you act a little crazy...

but its over now.....

I know there's no hope.....

Everything that has happen...means nothing at all....

All those time when I was there, when you were on the ground...

All those time....all those happiness...

It means nothing....

I should have seen it when you say goodbye to me...

I should have known when you no longer call....

It's sad....

You betrayed me....my trust, my faith in you...

Thank you so much...for breaking me....

Shouldn't have built up this hope....

It is such a waste....

No wonder you are not there during my hard time...

When I needed you the most

I bet even if you are given all the time in this world

You will still fail at being there for me

So empty....so absent....

I hope you are happy....

Thank you for being my worst friend ever... 

For now, I have no nice words for you...just hope that you are happy watching me fall...

THE LEAST THAT YOU COULD DO IS TO HAVE THE COURTESY OF TELLING ME THE TRUTH....bet, that would took too much of your time too.....

Thank you, for BREAKING my HEART

War? haha must be some joke!

no hope, right?
so, it is not wrong for me to stop fighting...
you throw away ur gun long before i did....

just so sad and dissapointing....
i'm angry...but u dun even feel guilty. typical u...

Hospital oh hospital

I am not allowed to break down in here...i've promised my self not to. But now, I am really torn. I dunno wats gud for me anymore. Ya Allah...bantulah hamba mu ini memilih.....sesungguhnya aku tidak tahu apa yg terbaik utkku.....

22nd March........wait up for a second will ya. I am not ready to filled up this form yet. I duno wat to do. I dunno where to go. I.....I just wana run away.....why must I make a decision. I dun want to.....I am not ready.....

Ah! Why is it so hard??? Logic go away......instinct quiet down for a second, memories please stop flashing those videos....and yeah turn the speaker out too......leave me alone. I need silence......its time to weigh what best for my future.....Ya Allah, please help me.....yes, i need your guidance my dear God T_T

mumbling tumbling

People surprise you....and not all surprises are BAD.....sometimes they are GOOD =)

well....i am still in dilemma...tak tahu la nak letak mane...maybe letakla semua hospital dalam balang and cabut je undi...ahahah...yea kerja gile...

teringin sangat nak bela haiwan....kucing vs rabbit...dua2 pun sgt comel....n dua2 pun shit a LOT!!! haihh....but I LOVE em...come here furry animal <3

This is LOVE ;)

Busy week ahead!

it is so hard reaching for somebody who aren't always there...

just hopefully i'll survive this week alright, cause after all this is over....the REAL war awaits...
i dun thk i am ready for it =(

be strong fie....be strong...

My Dearest,

One advice about guys, don't ever trust them until they have proven themselves trustworthy.

Justin Bieber

omeeeegoshhh!!!! how can i not know that ive been liking a guy that is under age again???? haiiyaaa...i'm not a peadophile okayyy.....ok ok..i'm exaggerating, i only like his music...teehee =)

sabah sarawak????? hmmm

Placement...

Finally had that KKM taklimat today....

my guide on where to go are :
1. where my most loyal, most never let me down support system will be available
2. where i can learn and improve my skills
3. where work load is not too little or too much
4. where i can still drive my way back on my off days
5. ....this one...i have to keep it a secret...huhu...

so, my choices are
1. ....
2. ....
3. ....

you are wrong

...crying is not the sign of weakness

Drama of Me?

Ntahla...I noe by saying this may seem a bit bizarre and over exaggerating of me. But why do I feel like people in my life is changing??? I mean like abruptly change. And I am clearly lost in the middle of the road....watching them walk without even taking a second to look at me. For instance, some friends of mine have found new friends to associate with.  I have a good feeling that I am not on their top list anymore. What's more, my position of priority may even have change. Maybe the way that they look at me also have change. The way that they think about me is not the same. The things that used to be something that they want to do with me has become some sort of responsibility for them to fulfilled.  I mean don't everything that have happen has some meaning?.

I have come to realized that people words are lies...until proven otherwise. We can't really depend on people. We depend on ourselves. We are our own strength. Because not all friends will turn back and help us, when we cry for help. Sometimes, they will only do so out the feeling of responsibility. Sometimes they won't even turn to help us at all. Worst of all...sometimes they turn back because they needed our helping hands or when they wanted to have fun. But sometimes when we are lucky....we'll find that friend who is always there through thick or thin...no matter how bad our condition are, no matter how much we troubled them, no matter how impossible, how overwhelmingly annoying we are...they are there, listening and talking to us...helping us through it all. Never even occurred to them to leave us, so that their life would be a little bit easier. Hmm...with all of these being said...maybe, I am not such a good friend either...

Most of the time....individuals that could do this for us are our family...but sometimes, you'll find it in a stranger that you can later call a true friend. If you ever find this kinda friend. Keep her/him real tight. Because they are one of the people who you can only find very rarely in your path of life....

p/s : to those friends of mine... I dunno wats on your mind anymore but I hope you are happy now. I will find my way...so dun you worry about me. Oh wait, I forgot, you don't.

6th sense

I have a really good intuition...

The only problem is...sometimes I overlooked it...

then...it will be too late...

With that said....note to self...

next time, trust your intuition...

trust it...and dun think twice

I'm a Cry Baby, Your cry baby Always

Jantung hati, rindu nya pada kamu...
Hari ni kamu datang sebentar sahaja...
Tak puas untukku melepaskan rindu ku...

Akhir kata, nak balik rumah!!!
Nak peluk kamu berdua puas2...
Yea, rindu sangat!!!!

Start with

I am SORRY....I really do. For EVERYTHING....

I am deeply sorry...

March's Rule

TOTAL IGNORANCE. TOTAL AVOIDANCE. TOTAL OBLIVIOUSNESS

not gonna do anything less

I'M SERIOUS

YOU ARE DEAD WRONG CAUSE THIS IS ONE GAME I DONT EVER WANA PLAY