I thk this blog is lacking of smthg meaningful lately...seems like it has been a place where I just dumped all of the things that I just cant say out loud, all my emotions and that's it. So what's going on lately? After my trip to Sabah....i had my Medical assessment....Alhamdullilah, I passed....so now...I am living my jobless days in Ortho.
Seriously after finishing medical *thought block* err i couldnt remember how i wana finish that sentence just now actually. Hmm anyways, i da abes medical...thinking bout it tak sangka dah lepas posting yg paling menakutkan tuh. Hmm...tapi i rase, byk jer lagi posting yg takut compare to medical i.e Anaest, ED or Peads. Life is always a challenge...sometimes I rasa cam I am in a game yang every posting feel like a Stage...so I must complete 6 Stage in total. Memang syukur sangat2 dah lulus medical. Tapi lepas abes medical masuk pulak Ortho yg cam takde kerja nie...adehhaiii bosannnye. Hari2 abes round dalam pukul 830am then by 930am dah jobless. Gi makan breakfast then after breakfast tido.....hahahahhahaha....cam tak senonoh kan. OMG, no wonderla I da cam tembam semacam. haihh -_____-""
Anyways...for the past few days....I've been trying to work on something to figure out somethg. But for some reason my effort kept on going in vain. I am seriously out of ways to achieve this. I cant seem to talk about it. I dunno how to make it happen. I just have to plant more patience deep inside of me. Maybe one day it will work out. Maybe one day there will no longer be in between. Maybe all of us are scared, maybe figuring it out is like letting down our defenses and exposing ourself to being hurt. Maybe that is our problem, we make ourself complicated so that people can't read us. So that people can't figure us out. So that we will be safe. Little did we realize, being safe will also predisposed ourself to being hurt. Like people sed, its better to have tried and fail than failing without even trying. Do you guys understand what I am talking about? I know Iam seryesly bad with words nowadays...I can't seem to use them to express whatever it is that I feel or think. I just feel so numb.
My point is life is too short...too short to play safe, so what if we get hurt. Get up!!! mend those wounds...it will heal, playing safe won't promise us that we won't get hurt. Its better to be in a battle and die rather than waiting at home to be killed. Our nature is to survive, we will find our ways to survive...tho I think I myself are not very brave to follow my own advise. I know I have to. I know what I want. I know what I feel. I am not scared to follow it. I just hope it is real this time....I am putting my destiny in you...
Anyways...for the past few days....I've been trying to work on something to figure out somethg. But for some reason my effort kept on going in vain. I am seriously out of ways to achieve this. I cant seem to talk about it. I dunno how to make it happen. I just have to plant more patience deep inside of me. Maybe one day it will work out. Maybe one day there will no longer be in between. Maybe all of us are scared, maybe figuring it out is like letting down our defenses and exposing ourself to being hurt. Maybe that is our problem, we make ourself complicated so that people can't read us. So that people can't figure us out. So that we will be safe. Little did we realize, being safe will also predisposed ourself to being hurt. Like people sed, its better to have tried and fail than failing without even trying. Do you guys understand what I am talking about? I know Iam seryesly bad with words nowadays...I can't seem to use them to express whatever it is that I feel or think. I just feel so numb.
My point is life is too short...too short to play safe, so what if we get hurt. Get up!!! mend those wounds...it will heal, playing safe won't promise us that we won't get hurt. Its better to be in a battle and die rather than waiting at home to be killed. Our nature is to survive, we will find our ways to survive...tho I think I myself are not very brave to follow my own advise. I know I have to. I know what I want. I know what I feel. I am not scared to follow it. I just hope it is real this time....I am putting my destiny in you...
