As I am making this blog entry.....I am actually very very VERY sleepy already. My eyes has been begging to sleep from 10pm but I was dragged to watch "Knight and Day" (a very funny movie!!!) by my sister and my parents. So, I just got back from watching movie....well, I know I said dragged but truthfully....I am really happy to go out with them. It was my sister's last night before she is gonna start the new semester. I really hope her semester will go smoothly and may she will claim her DL again this semester. And I hope she will find a proper place to stay. I am kinda worried about her but I have my own stuff to fuss about right now. I am really sad that I can't send her one last time before I start to work...I am so sorry Adik...you know that I love you so much kan....you have been a great company sepanjang my holiday nie...I am really glad to have you around. Missing u already :'(
This has been quite a busy week. First, I was surprise by the news that I have to go for induction next week. Yes, I was shock....cause it was not supposed to be this fast. I thought we will be called around 15 July....as it turns out I have to report for duty next Monday, 5th July. I am not trilled at all about the prospect. I still have another 2 weeks plan to complete. And here I am taking everything in... trying to compact my 2 weeks schedule to 4 days...which was a complete failure...if I have to say so. I am very upset. I don't really like it wen my plan goes wrong....Oh well, Alhamdullilah...most of the things that I need for my induction and work has already been completed. Just that I need to photocopy some important documents, buy some essential stuff like my shower foam and shampoo and stuff, and of cause packing. My mum said, I can't make such a long term plan...it is not good...I shud just at least plan1 week ahead, because we'll never know what might happen....in a way she is right tho...we are too busy planning life, where is the fun of it? We need to be more spontaneous and taste life as it is right...I dunno, maybe I am a control freak or sumthing...Not to mentionlah kan with that Postmen drama...goshh!!! just seriously...... (O.o)
I am really scared....I am scared that I did not get the hospital that I wanted to go. I am afraid to work. I am afraid if I can't be the good, safe, competent Muslim doctor. I am afraid that now people's life is in my hand. Anyway, I realized this week that I have so many people of whom I can depend on, who care about me...it made me see that I'm a very lucky person......kinda make me feel scared...cause people always say that there will be that calm peaceful period before the storms attack right. What if I have used up all my luck and the future awaits is just so so terrible? I noe I am being paranoid....but really, I do thk that way sometimes. I'll try to update about my holiday if I have time. But looking at things...I thk I have to do some other things first...I better go to sleep now...will try to post something more sensible tomorrow
HELLO JULY
its time for a new CHAPTER of my life
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