Now is 3.20pm....my sister had just left for Sg. Petani with my parents...and I have promise myself to spend only 30 minutes on the internet as I have to start packing and all that stuff...as I have been putting off everything ever since the news of induction reached my tympanic membrane. I find it so hard to wake up this morning, I don't want to face reality. I like things the way that it is now. I just feel so comfortable. With everyone's gone and me alone in charge of the house...no more diversion....reality is...next Monday i'll be goin for induction....get the result of the hospital that i'll be posted to....in which only Allah s.w.t knows where. Maybe faraway from my parents, my family and all of my bestfriends...my sister will be in Sungai Petani....and I can only see her during Raya...which reminds me...I have to make sure I apply for my Raya holiday as soon as I know my posting. I'll have to start to depend on myself solely. Thinking of all this...make me feel a little isolated and alone....geez, I am scared, but I have got to toughened up.
>>SHOCK>>BARGAINING>>DENIAL>>ANGER>>DEPRESSION>>ACCEPTANCE ~
Yes, I think I have come to accept this like it or not I HAVE TO ACCEPT IT...so now I have to start preparing myself and stop being sooo teary eyes about it. I am stronger than this. I know.....so I have to get to work now...I've got so many things to do.... ;)
