Sometimes I wonder what kind of person I am. I know that I dislike complicated stuff. Usually I will try my best to bury it six feet under as soon as possible. Maybe keeping this thing, having this thing inside me has been fluctuating my emotions. Truth is, by shutting down that part of me when I am with you. Don't you realize that you are splitting me into two person? Is that fair? Just so that u don't get stress up? You don't even wanna talk about it to make me feel better. I can't shut this forever, I can't stop talking bout it forever and I definitely can't pretend that I am okay and that I am happy whenever I am with you with another part of me shut deep inside a cupboard. Till when is it gonna be about you, what about me, what about what I want, what about what make me feel stress up? Do you think I am happy like this? I am not a very bright and shinny person. You may be right that my life is almost perfect. I don't have anythg to make me feel sad...yes, true all true...except for you. You make me sad. I won't lie to myself any longer. This is my blog. And if I can't say all of this to you. I have every right to be putting it up in my blog. You can be as complicated as you want. What would I care. You have put a label. That label is a line that I decide to follow. Whether you like it or not, this is me thinking rationally. Whatever happens, it is not on me anymore. I have done everythg that I could think off for you. So now...I am telling you that I have surrender.
