i feel like i am wasting my time on you that are so ambivalent

My HoLiDaY

my holiday is here yay!!!!
pusing kiri...pusing kanan...hmm i'm alone in this room
tgk handphone dialing 01********
no answer
holiday = boring =(

FreeZe...3

freezing time attempt NO.3

7.00am

i think i better just let this go... we are only human... puppets of this stage called life. no matter what, time will pass. new days will come with a new dawn and a new sunrise. maybe the air is a little bit more polluted than before, but we are born with the ability to adapt to new situation so we will be okay. probably, we will first fall or get sick or have a headache. but we will survive and we will be okay just as long as we try and have the spirit to be okay. as of now, all we need to do is enjoy and cherish the moment that we have because the past will stay as a memory, today is ours to cherish, and the future will stay as a mystery.

7.01 am...

ATTEMPT NO. 3 FAILED...

i am not saying that i am okay with this or that i am not sad. but this time... i can smile because i can let this go. as i know that all of us will have to move on for something better one way or the other... so that all of us can be someone better.

so lastly, i just wanna say GOOD LUCK, ALL THE BEST and TAKE CARE
may us see each other again soon...i am gonna miss u so much!!!!
(u know who uguys are)...

Discover Girls Reality Through Birth Date!

Syafiqah have Discover Girls Reality Through Birth Date!

You were born on 17 December 1986, Wednesday.

POSITIVE : Good in relationship, know how to appreciate people around her. Not selfish. Always put others instead of herself. Open minded. In finance, she's good at making money. Love at first sight, and ready to sacrifice everything for love. Sexually speaking, she's good and romantic.

NEGATIVE : Revengeful. If someone hurt her, she'll return the favor badly. Bad at keeping secret, not a good apprentice. Her decision aren't balance, lack in experience. Stubborn, don't easily trust others. Only certain people know how to treat her. Bad at spending money.

p/s i did this quiz just for fun ;p

~Micheal Jackson aka King of POP~

RIP today
1958-2009

semoga syafiqah dapat membuat yg terbaik di dalam peperiksaan dan mendapat keputusan yang cemerlang...Amin

ZoMbiE

this week has been a very busy week. i feel like a zombie that sleep around 3am and wake up fully energize at 6.30am. no wonder i've been walking like a zombie too. plus, the eye bag around my eyes are getting worst (my youth!!!! *cries in agony*)

i, eja, yasmin, ad and aina has been very the nerdy for these past few weeks doin short cases, practicing physical examination and discussion. insyaAllah..ade juga yg dpt penetrate my thick skull nie..but tak tahu la enuf ke tak nak ensure that i'll do well...that's y i have to work extra hard lagi 3 days nie...so, gona burn my lampu to its best use..heheh (hopefully)

weekends ni i tak balik rumah pun...sedih sgt, cz yesterday was my nenek punya hari jadi. die siap tempah kek lagi tau...mase last week i balik, mase die tanye i balik ke tak nak celebrate birthday die tu...rase mcm bersalah sgt nak ckp tak balik...wahh teruknye me =(

syafiqah sayang nenek <3

ok, ade ward round dgn dean...so maybe tonite we are goin to the ward to clerk patient. haih, so tired...nasib baik my write up and seminar dah siap *huu lega* after exam...i still have class, clinics and round with the dean..but i have some family thing that i really want to go to...ape korunk rase? patut tak i ponteng hari jumaat tu?

'we are a life long learner, so learning is a continuous thg'

but this is soo unfair!!!! dahla we dun have study week...n cuti only 1 week before final year...

monsterkookies. deviantart.com

MiDniGht oiL

i've come to realized that i'm very hard to please if i've put certain expectations on certain things...so, shame on me for not appreciating your effort. pity you cause you have to bear with it. maybe... it was not what i would have wanted to hear but i just want you to know that it was very sweet of you to say so..

FreeZe...2

freezing time attempt NO.2

11.58pm....freeze...freezeee....freezeeeeeeeee

11.59pm....

ATTEMPT NO. 2 FAILED!

noooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

gosh! i seriously need to learn this fast...

all you have do is say the magic word and i' am all yours

My iNviSiBLe FriEnD

no matter what happen I won't budge, I'm gonna be standing here and witness all of your moments of happiness. doesn't matter if you are never gonna noticed me here. doesn't matter if you will never gonna invite me to come over. doesn't matter if you'll never find the meaning of my existence because i don't know what else to do other than to be your shadow...

Coffee and Cakes

In life, it is always easier to blame others for anything rather than blaming yourself
No guilt, no responsibility, and probably the satisfaction of thinking that you are right at all cause

Let us all take a little bit of our time and think :

How many times in a day, we all think about what we have done for others instead of what others have done for us?
How many times do we think about our little effort instead of others little effort?
How many times do we tried to understand others instead of hoping others will understand us?
How many times do we try to listened instead of making others listened to us?

Cause at the end of the day, we are at least 50% at fault just like those we blame.

When you blame others, you give up your power to change ~ Dr. Robert Anthony

MoRninG EveRyone

Packed and Gone.
And I...have to study for exam...

QuEstiOn aNswEreD

i've thought about how to ask you the question so many times in so many different ways
i guess, i've finally found the answer in the most unexpected way
so can u please tell me what should i do now?

FreeZE..1

freezing time attempt NO.1

9.57pm....stop...stop...stoppppppp....

9.58pm...

ATTEMPT NO. 1 FAILED!

ToGeTheR

My current obsession....just lurrve this song by Ne yo called Together :">



thank you Mochooox for making a very cute video..teehee...

DeAr Magic FlutE...

i wanna freeze time...
i don't want to face the end of this week
or the end of this month...they are my enemies
i just wana freeze it...and spend my time wearing 3D glasses, eating cheesecakes, drinking ice-lemon tea, and watching fishes all day...everyday...i'm not ready for things to change...no no i just can't bear it...please just someone help me find the PAUSE button...please...

oReO cHeEsEcaKe

give me more lovin than i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy...as easy as 1, 2...1, 2, 3, 4...

-Plain White T's

i just can't get enough of these words...and i know how very cliche it is ;p

cOMeLnyE aNak kUciNg

kamu nie memang suka buat saya geram
tapi kenapa saya tak boleh nak marah dengan kamu???
mungkin sebab kamu tu adorable sgt macam anak kucing nie...rase nak cubit2 jer..huhuhu ;p

taken from deviantart.com

tapi hari ni saya memang geram sgt dengan seorang hamba Allah nie, sebab tak pasal2 die nak marah kami satu kelas. padahal kami tak buat ape2 pun kat die. knapa puan marah2 nie?. inai pun masih merah lagi kat jari tu...senyum la sikit mesti nampak manis, mungkin akan terserlah sedikit seri pengantin tu. tapi mungkin, lepas nie susah saya nak ubah tanggapan terhadap puan. cuma saya harap puan akan jadi lecturer yg baik kat anak2 murid puan nanti, ok? haha.. apela yg saye merepek nie...lebih baik saya study. mintak maaf ye puan, lepas ni kami tak kacau puan buat round lagi.

p/s kuih telinga keling tuh nama lain die kuih denderam ok

RaSPberRiEs YoGuRt

I think people sometimes...

spend their times saying things that are not important
spend their times saying all the wrong things at all the wrong time to all the wrong people
hide their true feelings (well maybe they are embarrassed or scared)
failed to let their loved ones know just how much they care bout them
failed to say 'I miss you' to the people that they missed
failed to make time for the people that matter the most
failed to make the most out of their time and be the best
failed to focus on what's important
don't fight for their chances

what do u think?
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- hmm, memang tak suka bile air nescafe tumpah atas buku...habis buku ade kesan air nescafe...
- pak cik jual roti canai...kan saya nak beli roti sardin, lain kali pak cik buat je tanpa byk songeh yea...saya yg nak makan bukan pak cik ;p

- sedih tak dpt makan nasi lemak mak cik prima pagi tadi
- hari ni saya kene study, malam nanti nak pegi ward 5D tgk case baru
- pagi esok ade round dgn DeAN (takutnye)
- exam lagi 2 minggu lebih (byk lagi tak bace *cries in agony*)
- tak sabar nak tgk video tu, buat cepat2 ok..saya janji saya tak gelakkan O=)

akhir kata saya rindu kat kamu semua, kamu rindu kat saya tak??? hahaha..ok nak study dulu..fighting!!!

cicak oh cicak

Ini Al-kisah dua ekor cicak yg sedang bersiar-siar pada dinding rumah...sedang mereka bersiar-siar, tiba-tiba cicak pertama tersilap langkah lalu jatuh ke atas lantai. Cuba kamu semua teka apa cicak kedua kata kepada cicak pertama...hehe...

Kisah ni, my kawan baik yg cerita kat me...kalau kamu semua nak tahu jawapannye...kenela slalu ambil perhatian bila ade cicak kat rumah...kuikuikui...

p/s : kawan baik, u nie mmg byk idea nak buat me gelak...mmg best. tapi lagi best kalau u slalu buat muka hepi cam hari tu ;p

tOaSt dAn kAya

hmm hari ni 1st time round dgn DEaN. seronok jugak tgk D' Greatness in action. up until now believe it or not...i enjoy cardiology very much. tapi rase takut tu ade gak...mane tak nye, MO pun tergagap-gagap jawab soalan DEAN. but i survived the session...Alhamdullilah...
DEaN, minggu depan kite jmpa lagi yea...

Str3NgTh

We need strength for almost everything, everyday in our lives. Strength to wake up each day and step into that cold shower to face yet another day in our lives. Strength to overcome fear, mistakes, weaknesses and embarrassment in order to gain something that worth a lifetime. Strength to learn in gaining knowledge. Strength in loving and caring for someone so dearly, to endure all the tears they cause us to shed. Strength to have patience in facing all the hardship and challenges in life. Strength to tolerate the pain that causes our heart to bleed. Strength to keep on hoping and praying that one day everything will turn out just fine. Strength in accepting that not all people are willing to do what we want them to do, even when they no our intention is gud and all we want is for the best. Strength to accept that not everything will go the way we planned it to be.
To accept that life is complicated and it wasn’t always bright and shinny. Strength is accepting thgs the way they are and finding a way to adapt our selves. Strength to finally let our barrier falls n learn how to trust again, hope again, to depend n to sacrifice. To be able to let thgs that we hold so tightly before slipped away from us. To bear that not everything that we want meant for us. Strength in letting people sees our true feelings, sees who we are inside. To have patience in letting thgs go and move on.
Strength to live today like there’s still tomorrow, even wen we no that tomorrow will not be the same as today. To be able to say that it is okay, wen we know that things are far from fine. To be able to keep on going even wen our spirit had sank so low. Strength to keep a straight face, wen ur insides is churning with emotions. To just keep on fighting and let other thgs seems less important. To put something that we yearn for on hold, so that we could muse on something that need extra attention n effort.
Strength, so that we’ll be able to be as selfless as we could in this world of cruelty. Most important of all, is the strength to depend on our self, wen no one else is around. To have that strength is really a miracle to me.