you push me to this direction

Please let this time be REAL....

A Glass of Milk

When I feel down....my mum usually will made me a glass of milk. She said milk can cure almost anythg. To my mum milk is like wonderdrug.....it can heal almost anything....i grew up in a simple family. Today a glass of milk calm me down...make me feel at peace....put me to sleep...after hours of crying, after multiple dose of scolding, after working double shif wen i'm not supposed to. Yes, my mum's medicine is the best...

Don't Want An Ending

Dedicate this song to someone very special in my life. I don't want an ending to this...

that's me

every once a month...there ill time wen i will become completely emotional, needy, dependent...senang kata mengada2..nak nanges la....then for no reason at all feel so sad. problem kecik pun akan jadi besar. When this time come....please just listen to me crying...say you understand, and that u believe that everything is gonna be alright...then if u are permitted...just give me a hug or say that you really feel like u want to give me a hug. I seriously duno why i become like that.... no matter how i fight the feeling...it wont go away. I already tried!!! Zatil sed its my hormones.....darn my hormones for making me this way but that is just who i am. It is not as if I did not try to overcome it...i did/do all the time....it just won't work. So just be patient for a few days till i got my act together and you can stop worrying about me.....sekian, terima kasih

oh yeah, i really misses you!!!!

What is HAPPINESS ?

Happiness.. what is happiness???

Seriously.....i duno how to answer this. Never have i ever ponder about this. But when a pair of eyes is looking at you full of question asking you for a confirmation "Is this happiness Fie?". I suddenly realized that happiness and happy are not the same thing. Happy are more of a short moment thing. Happiness more of a life long thing. Truthfully....I can't say that this is happiness....cause I don't really noe how happiness feel. All I feel right now is calmness, comfort and peace of mind...with you I've found my safety zone.....if those are what you called happiness... then maybe it is, maybe what we have is happiness. Is it going to lasts? Well, I duno the direction of our lives, I duno where the destiny may lead us. I duno what Allah swt have install for us......If let say you are sure about me....I guess, all that we have to do is have a little bit of faith....take our chances, pray and hope that our decision is the best...InsyaAllah....

Being happy is something you have to learn. I often surprise myself by saying "Wow, this is it. I guess I'm happy. I got a home I love. A career that I love. I'm even feeling more and more at peace with myself." If there's something else to happiness, let me know. I'm ambitious for that, too.

- Harrison Ford