This Ortho posting has definitely gave an impact in my life....we have to work in shifts for at least once a month in which there will be no weekend off, sometimes my sleeping pattern is seriously disturb by the shift systems. But, who am I kidding? life is Ortho can be said as nothing if compared with medical....prove is I gain weight ok...yup, i'm officially a fatty. After receiving a few remarks like..." you look healthier fie, did you gain weight?", my bestfriend has been calling me 'donut cheeks' tho I actually don't really mind cz think it is kinda cute...I just cannot ignore it any longer when most of my pants are getting tighter....haihh seriously this call for a SOS. I know, beauty seriously lies inside but I don't want to look fat either. Maybe nobody really care about how you look and stuff. But don't lie and said that you don't agree that...how you look actually help in your self esteem.
My friend once said ~
I read in a comic strip once, it said..."when you are in your 20's you will care so much about what other people thought of you, when you are in your 30's you will start not to care, and when you reach your 40's you will learn that people don't really care about you at all". With that being said we should care less about what people think because people dont care..
I thought about this quote...it may be true that reality is people don't really care about you at all. We can say it that way but I personally think it cant be 100% true. Ppl in their 20's may think a lot about how they look, how they appear to other ppl, what other people think about them..why? Because they themselves think about others, they judge ppl clothing, personality... They are at the age where they are searching for stability. Not much about finding who they wanna be as they have done in their teens more of building a personality so they improvice and change themselves to be who they see themselves to be. So they judge and critic, and compare themself to other ppl, not because they simply like to bring other ppl down but because it is their way to learn and without they realize they change, creating a very individualistic character of their own. So they fuss over their look, they become obssessive over what people think of them and etc..because ppl do care, at least the ppl their age..
Moving on to people in their 30's, well normally people at this age...they have achieve at least some kind of stability in life be it in personal life, career or whatever it is that made them focus. At this age, they are more focus, they no longer pay attention to all this minute things that is just going to slow them down. They do what they wana do, focus on it and give it their best. That's why their started not to care because they know well enough that caring about what other people think wont get them anywhere.
And when they are 40's, they just finally realized what are the things that matter the most. Most probably they have already achieve what they wanna achieve or they have become content with their life.
I don't know... this is just what I think, tho beauty really lies on the inside...i strongly believed this is true but how you look, dress, represent yourself and most importantly how you feel about yourself have a lot to contribute to your self esteem. And these things come with experience...one step at a time...at my age now I still do care about what people think of me.
Anyway, nowadays I think life was pretty okay...I think I am really blessed in whatever I do. I think Ortho as much as I don't like it is kinda interesting plus I get a chance to suture again..so that is really great. I really enjoy learning all this new stuff. I enjoy sports clinic and it is not due to Mr. Peter... I promise. It is just kinda exciting learning. During my Blue Zone shift I managed to work closer to my bestfriend and it is kinda nice seeing each other in a working environment. Too bad we'll never get a chance to actually be in the same department. Anyway, other important thing that has been lingering on my mind these lasts few days are...I think I am falling, I just wanna say it. But nothing came out. I dunno, I dunno what I shud do. Time is not really on my side anymore. I duno how I am going to be the next one year. I dunno...and I am scared.
