tHe EnD is NeAr...

At last, we are almost at the end of 2009. What 2009 mean to me? It is a year that my baby sister has stop being my weekend roommate. A year that I managed to get a room of my own (well, still kongsi, but Murni is not always around >_<) A year that I decided that I wanna be short haired. A year that I managed to become green eyed for a month. A year that I started this blog. A year that people started calling me final year medical student (yea, sudah 5 tahun...burden burden). A year that I fully conducted a delivery and repair the vaginal tear all by my self *good memories*. A year that I become down shit BROKE!!! T_T. A year where I had most date proposals and love confessions, yet...haha. A year that I managed to have Japanese friends (Sugoiii!!) A year that has thought me true meaning of friendship and love. A year that has force me to accept that LOVE can make you blind and stupid (yeah, that actually can happen -__-"). Valuable lesson in deed. A year of realization. Year of epiphany. A year where I uncover the true colours of the people around me. A year where my logic has return (thank GOD!). A year that I can confidently say that I've gain 3 level up on maturity and inner strength each. As a conclusion, it is a bitter BITTER YEAR...full of experiences that has thought me a lot about life and my self in a way that I've never seen before. And for that...I am thankful to Allah to have LOVE and given me so much. 

Hopefully 2010 will be free from this bitter BITTERness and will be filled with happy HAPPYness.

One last advise, DON'T EVER LOSE YOURSELF, NO MATTER WHAT!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

certain things, even without words, can be interpreted, no worries, my questions are answered. 

wOndeRinG nOw...

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Note to XYs

Dear all those XYs out there,

May God bless your soul for your presence in this world. I am truly glad that you guys are here living on this earth with us XXs. But I, for once wana say...stand back, hold your horses and just turn the other way and don't dare to look my way. You guys just have no idea who or what uguys are dealing with. My heart is fragile, it has been slash in  so many different ways for the past 11 years of my life and it has been tortured chronically for the past 4 years and 5 months. So yeah, stand back if you don't want it to break into million pieces. My heart needs healing. Unless you sincerely want to handle my heart with care, heal and protect it with all of your viable manly power. I suggest you to stop, don't even think about trying to play with it. For this is to be taken seriously cause I need my heart to continue living...

Quoted By

Browsing through weheartit.com and found this

LOVE IS NOT about COMPARING who is better in a BATTLE of winning your HEART. If COMPARING is involved, then I guess.... it is not LOVE after all...

pOsitiVity

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Thanks Mirae, I really needed that. Really missed talking to you. LOVE

HaiR intErvENtiOn 2

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14 years of long hair now gone. I'm gonna miss you long hair. See each other again soon. (^^)v 

Dear Flute

Sweet Cookie

23 is a nEw BeGinNinG

Yes, I've managed to reached 23 years of my life at 11.03am  on December, 17 2009. Truth is, i always imagine my 23 self to be settled, well sorta like elegant woman, have my future figured out, calm, focus, stable, wise and mature....but sadly i am none of the above. I am cranky, i got mood swings, my stress level can go high and low within minutes, I am still struggling to figure out life, to be loved, planning my future and everything just seem like a dark road full of haze. The only thing that keep me moving is that, the blessings that I have from the people who really care about me. They are like a lantern that I have, they kept me warm when it gets cold and shine my dark path. The path that I am currently walking on, I don't know where will it leads me, what awaits along this path. Till today, I've fallen into so many holes and step onto so many thorns. But always, I'll find that bright light, or a newly bloom flowers and they made me smile and laugh again. So, I guess life isn't so bad right. A person once told me that "you've got to go through the bad stuff  to appreciate the good stuff". Well, maybe those things I imagine are a bit out of reached at this age...cause at 23, adult life are just starting, I still have time to figure everything out, and everything will turn out just fine, one day...InsyaAllah.

Since this new number came together with our Islamic Year celebration, it is only proper to say that I wanna be a better muslim and a better person this year....I've said this thing every year, but nothing seem to really change. Well, I guess, change are always up to us. We are the one that have to power up and change ourself. More action and less talk right. I gotta set  my mind and focus. Seeing how hard my seniors work in their housemanship, I know that this is really serious business. We are dealing with people lives. They are our responsibility and shame on us for signing up for this but did not prepare ourself. Well, I don't know why I am blogging about this cz this pep-talk are actually just meant for myself. Maybe cause typing it down seems less crazy than talking to my self. Anyway, I wana take this chance to wish you guys 

SALAM MAAL HIJRAH 1431

MAY ALLAH BLESS US ALWAYS

Million thanks to the people who wishes me on my birthday. Thanks to Sakinah and Hanis for blogging about it, you girls are the sweetest. Thanks to my housemates for throwing me a surprise party, and giving my hair an icing cream SPA, love you guys sangat >_<. Far and Akmal for throwing me an advance birthday party. Zatil, for such unique present, seriously I still tak kluar kan present tu from  kotak lagi cz sayang nak guna. Everyone for the lovely presents. And last but not least thanks to my best friend Hazim for making me have a great birthday despite your busy days.

HAVE A GREAT YEAR AHEAD! =)

a Day beFoRe 23

~Life update~

Hahah cam poyo jer buat life update kat blog sendiri, gaya cam ada beribu-ribu pembaca setia je...hohohoh. Eheh...takde lah, I soooo... know that my blog hanya ada pembaca yg boleh di bilang dengan tangan je as I dun tell  about it to everyone. So anyhoot, life update...I am currently in Surgery Posting. Hmm...I don't la hate this posting, I think I am okay with it but I still don't like the smell of the surgical ward. It seriously make me feel nauseous. (Ceh, perangai cam tuan puteri je cakap macam nie) But seriously, ever since I've been to this same ward the first time I step into it as a clinical year student while I was in Year 3, my perception of it hasn't change. I thought that I would have get used to it by now...like somehow the smell won't bother me so much. Apparently it still does. So anyway, this is my second last posting as a medical student. Geez, takut kan kan kan....in like approximately 15 weeks I'm gonna sit for my PRO EXAM. To tell you the truth, I think I am on the verge of getting panic attack every time I think about my FINAL PRO 3 EXAMINATION in APRIL. 

Seriously, it is time to focus now and be really really scared. Okay, not lah scared until impaired function to study pulak. Tapi  kene focus lah, in which I dun understand why is it so hard for me to accomplish. If only reading medical books is as interesting as reading story books hahaha...i dun think that is gonna happen anytime SOON. So, new medical book authors should really take note that the next time they want to publish a book, MAKE IT INTERESTING and LESS TIRING. But, I have a feeling that it is an awful lot of hardwork to accomplish this as Medicine is all about fact and well fact are FACT. To make it interesting, you must be a hell of a CREATIVE doctor. Hmm, maybe someday..huhuhu. That's all for now...toodles >_<

xoxoFie

ni adelah gambar mase first year, do I look the same? haha I think I've change a lot!!!

HaiR intErvENtiOn

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For such a long time...I never thought I would ever say this. But I want SHORT HAIR. And nobody can stop me from having it!

mEteOr RaiN

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I read in a newspaper today that the astrologist predicted that, around early morning tomorrow or Monday (Kuala Lumpur peak hour 13th Dec 09 ~ 10.00pm), our sky will be decorated by Geminid Meteor Shower. We actually experience this phenomenon every year when our Earth faced the stars of Gemini and all of the meteor will looked as if they are originated from Gemini. The sight of this meteor shower has become more apparent to us every year since they found it about 150 years ago. They predicted that  this year around 100 meteor can be seen per hour at its peak hour. Exciting, right? How I wish I can go to somewhere high, where the sky is so apparent to witness this phenomenon. =)

more info : www.mydarksky.org

sHOeS mANIa!!!

The title says it all. It started when I saw VINCCI new calatog in CLEO DECEMBER Edition and I am now in a state of shoe addiction.  In medicine, ADDICTION is conceptualized as a habitual psychological or physiological dependence on a substance or a practice that is beyond voluntary control. Okay, so probably I am not in a state of addiction yet but I CRAVEEeeEEe for shoe..

MOMMA gimme some moolah!!!! T_T

these are the pictures that I took from the catalog =)

i'm in LOVE with this!!!!!

p/s no wonder the college provide us with another shoe rack....so that i can put more shoes in them..hahah <3

www.padini.com

gLee

GiFt

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I realized that in life, there are so many ironies. It can be bad and sometimes it can be good. Some call it a sign, a guidance from God to us in an indirect manner. Some call it coincidence. Maybe it is just something that our mind are drugged into thinking about in a way TOO DEEP than it actually should. Either way, we all like it. It sort of give life a tinge of excitement, something to hold on too. Anyway, it keeps me smiling. Love to all the irony of the world.You keep me HAPPY. Now, that is a word that I haven't put myself in for quite a while. Have a nice weekend everybody, may all of us be BLESSED by Allah s.w.t....Amin. Inner peace is happiness.

Allah did not promise the way would be easy . But Allah did promise that He would be with you in every single step of life as long as you want Him to...

p/s : Hanis, thank you for reminding me on this =)

PrOuD siSter

My sis managed to get into Dean's List!!!!

CONGRATULATIONS SIS

KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!!!

I AM SO PROUD OF YOU

LOVE

xoxo

ur sister

MaKe-Up mE pRetTy

Courtesy of Zatil the Mak Andam 

Lepas nie boleh tolong make up kan i pulak *senyum tersipu-sipu* ;P

dReSs mE uP

love these dresses !! =)

What is my number again? Has it change?

MLIA my dAy

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I read this today on http://mylifeisaverage.com :


Today, my mom told me that PMS is like a dementor. It sucks the happiness of everyone around, but chocolate makes it all better. MLIA


gosh! -.-"

tHinKing diRty

OMG!!! i seriously don't know how to put this...but i thk my mind has been so corrupted. NOOOOOOOOooo!!! NOOOOOOOoooooo!!!!
What am I talking about? Okay, listen to this :

For the past one week, I've been thinking that they are singing :

If I knew then, What I know now

I wanna have s**

I do need you around

Alone in this bed the silence is so loud

So I'll treat you the best 

Baby , if I knew then what I know now

*instead of*

If I knew then, What I know now

I wouldn't have said

I don't need you around

Alone in this bed the silence is so loud

So I'll treat you the best 

Baby , if I knew then what I know now

Imagine how disappointed I am to hear they are singing something like that. Haiyo, How can I turn a harmless, innocent lyrics into something so dirty. Ahhhh!!!! wat happen to me??? Hey you, yes u there..the one who is smiling to urself. You are definitely responsible for this!!! GeeZz >_<

But, I'm glad that their lyrics are still sweet, cause for 1 second (more like one week) I thought that they have change into Kanye West-Usher-JayC types of guys...GeezZz, Thank goodness, they don't!!!

aLtEr tHe EnDinG

We all have different threshold of patience and pain

LOVE the mOvie

500 days of Summer

Only one sentence needed to describe this movie other than I LOVE it, this is the REAL love story.

p/s : kepada sesiapa yg belum tengok lagi, sila tgk pada kadar segera okey

Hello sUn!

OK...just so u noe, this post might sound a little bit lesbo...

I'm currently in love with this girl right here. I love her style, her clothes, her dresses, her hair...all so so sooo classic and vintage. What's more? She even have a very classic voice to match her classic style. And her sparkling blue blue eyes, gosh...like so mesmerizing. I've seen her in so many movies before like Failure to Launch, Yes Man and the most recent one is 500 days of Summer. Gosh!!! I'm in love with her man. If there's a question in Facebook Social Interview that asked 'If you had to choose to look like somebody for the rest of your life, who would you choose?' I would answer...Zooey Deschanel, definitely!!!!!. My current playlist, are her songs...gosh!! totally love her voice. hmm before I sounded more lesbo than this I better go..LOL ~ ^^ v

p/s : I know that I am not a lesbo because Zooey Deschanel are gone from my thought just by seeing this. HAHA.Hv a nice day y'all!!! 

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Dear Mimi,

You have been my bestfriend for more than 10 years now, I've lost count.You and me, we have gone through a lot together. I could not really recall how we actually started to be friends, it must have been way way back when we were in primary school. But, I remember how we got close to each other. Do you remember? When we were in Form 3, and we somehow had a crisis (you and Jen had a crisis) and you end up to be the only one left yg teman me pergi tuisyen kat Institut Kajang tuh. Gawd!!! Lawak gler kot time tu and NO! dun even TRY to remind me about that guy. And I really miss those times Mie, you always have some words of wisdom to get me back on my track. Even now, you've always manage to remind me to get back on my track. And you know, looking  back at all of our fights, its like a miracle how our friendship lasts till today eventhough I thk it have been through a lot of metamorphosis and bad weather. I guess, our good times are always worth while to believed in and hold on to. Thanks a lot for being my best friend Mie, I hope all 6 of us will have wonderful lives in the future and still have each other. I  LOVE you a lot makcik!!! MISS you so much!!! Anyway, I wish that you'll have a great birthday wherever you are. Study hard!!! May us both be great doctors one day together with Jen, and together we raWk that hoSpital with our awEsomeNess...hehe GOoD Luck in everything you do...Take Care. Oh yeah! May 23 brings u lots n lots of aWeSomeNess!!!! XOXO

Dear Hazim, 

Thank you for being my friend ever since I got into this medical faculty. Looking back, I'm actually amazed at how easy it is for us to get along. I can't really recall how it is that we got closer and become bestfriends. I guess when something comes just too easily it is easier for us to take it for granted. But, I will always remember the day that we first met, though I am not really thrilled at first to have you as my mentor (I would prefer a girl) I am glad that you are my mentor now. Thank you for being my support system when no body is around, for believing in me at times when I don't believe in myself. For making me laugh when half a smile seems so impossible. How I managed to stand having a guy as my best friend is beyond me. Though being the hot shot doctor that you are right now, you are getting way way wayyyy BUSIER (You are seriously making me having a second thought about O&G now ~ haha...you wish! so not gona happen, unless I go thru it myself  nnt) DON'T YOU DARE forget me. And well, since this is my blog in which you probably won't really have the time to read it. Find yourself a soulmate soon so that Hanis, will stop probing me about it!!!. All the best!!! May 24 brings you lots of CoOLneSs and MatUriTy!!!!

MAY YOU BOTH HAVE A GREAT BIRTHDAY

MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU BOTH ALWAYS

p/s : I clearly don't have anything better to do~LOL~ok ok kene pergi tambah brain mass.XOXO

For once, I wish you would try to start saying NO

PoSt NeW MoOn

Okay, I'm seriously in LOVE with Taylor Lautner. Help!

Oh yeah! WELCOME DECEMBER!!!