31 October 2009

it iS goNna bE aLriGht


"...i just realised you know, if we focus on our job, focus on our patient, we are gonna be fine."
- Lexie Grey (Grey's Anatomy Season 6 Episode 3)

This week, is the first 1 week out of these last 5 months that I actually stop all the fie-paranoid-thinking and start living for my self, focus on my life, my future...ME. And at the end of this week, I actually feel good! I am happy! Its true what people said, the best and the most worthwhile relationship that you could ever have with anyone is the relationship with yourself, because...only you yourself know you the best,who can love you the best.


to LOVE is to LEARN
to LEARN is to PASSION
to LEARN is to UNDERSTAND
to UNDERSTAND is to LISTEN
to LISTEN is to FOCUS
FOCUS is making it your PRIORITY
So, LOVE is PASSION, UNDERSTANDING and making it your PRIORITY
to me.... LEARNING is PRIORITY

30 October 2009

ThOuGht sALaD

170 days more to PRO 3.Missing my life when I was in Year 4, the time when I had everything (thought I had everything), happy, secure and content.Wish I could go shopping everyday (therapy).Awkward phone conversation.Really just can't understand Psychiatry.Should be sleeping right now..Management of Schizophrenia Seminar.Wish I can go home this week.Wish I have a car.Wish I could just escape from everything this weekend and have a quiet Fie time.Where to go for housemanship?.Should do that study time-table tomorrow.Miss my little sister so much.I should really go to sleep.ZZzzZZZzzzZZZZZ

26 October 2009

JeNny's BiRtHday!



Happy Birthday Jenny!!!!!

26th October 2009

Wish that you'll have a great birthday!!!
May that new number bring you a lot of LOVE, LUCK, LUXURY and LAUGHTER.
May Allah s.w.t bless u always.

p/s : makcik, love u always. blaja rajin2!!! Best friend forEVER and EVER and EVER!!!!!

25 October 2009

Weehoooo =)


I have a confession, I LOVE to shop! Okay, not really till addicted sangat yang sampai menyusahkan orang and have debts here and there. I know where to stop. I know my limits. But that don't change the fact that I LOVE it. The other day, my mum gave me a cute kitty tabung that says A penny a day, keeps poverty away. Till today, that tabung is empty. 

VERDICT ~ I AM TOTALLY GUILTY

My ayah always told me that you must know which one is esssential need and which one is desire. PRIORITIZE. Hmm...I am totally aware of this. Being a daughter of both bank officers. I think I am not that naive when it comes to money. I even have my own account book, mind you. But, ayah...I seriously can't get the picture of that shoe outta my mind!!! See, this is where I know that I have a problem. When DESIRE become priority, it is always TROUBLE...


zatil, jom pegi shopping...hahah ;p


Reminder on Islam

The following 4 deeds bring misery to a person's heart, so avoid them:

1. Complaining and being angry with what God has decreed
2. Commiting sins without repenting afterwards
3. Hating people for the blessings that God has bestowed upon them.
4. Turning away from the remembrance of God

24 October 2009

SiNkiNg LoWeR


This is a story about a puppy name Choco, Choco has been abandoned by his owner.

One rainy day, while Choco was walking down a new street that he is not familiar with...he ponder upon his life...will he ever be loved again, cuddle again. He felt so cold, the cold rain was dripping from his fur. He was hungry too, it has been 3 days since he had eaten anything. Suddenly, Choco lost his step, tripped and fall into the drain. *BLACKOUT*

"Hello dear boy, are you okay?" called a voice. Choco wanted to respond but he was too tired. He tried to get up, but he felt sudden shoot of pain came from his right front leg and he fall again. "Oooh, you poor boy" the voice said. Then Choco was lift up and he went unconcious again.

When Choco gain his conciousness the next day, he suddenly realized that he was in a cage. He became very anxious and tried to get up but he can't. The pain is still there, he looked at his leg and found that it has been bandaged. So he barked. Then came that same voice saying "Owh great! you are up!!". Then, came a boy holding two bowls in his hand "Here, have some milk and food. You broke your leg, so it'll be awhile before you can be up and about again. My name is Tommy by the way, I am 6 years old. I am the one who found you in the drain!" said the boy smiling.

Day by day, Choco learnt that he is now in an animal shelter. Tommy is one of the volunteer in the animal shelter because he love to takes care of animal but his parents don't let him to have pets at home. Tommy will nurse and talk to Choco, cuddle him and make him feel so loved. Till they became bestfriends. Everyday Tommy will do his volunteer work and play with Choco. Choco loved having Tommy around. He is his person but he is not sure if Tommy felt that way towards him too till one day, Tommy said "You know Choco, eventhough my parents don't let me have a dog at home...but u are like my very own dog. I am so glad I found you!". At that moment, Choco knows he is Tommy's too.


Suddenly one day, came in a new puppy. His name is Vonnie. He is abandoned by his owner outside of the animal shelter. From that day, Tommy started to play with Vonnie too. Choco know that Tommy is just being nice to all of the animal in the shelter, that is just so Tommy, he like to be nice to everyone. Besides, Tommy still play with Choco on his free time.So, there is nothing to be jealous about.

*****

It has been a few days since Choco see Tommy, he misses Tommy a lot. He wonder why Tommy has stop coming to the shelter. He felt lonely again. "Hey, everybody!!!!" called out a cheery voice. Choco recognize it at once, its Tommy's!!! He felt so happy. "Hey buddy, how is your exam?" asked the Animal Shelter's Manager. "It was great, I have a good feeling that I am going to do well" he said. "...my daddy told me that he is going to let me adopt a puppy if I get good results..." Tommy continue. "Wow really? That's is great news! Which puppy do u had in mind? Do you like Vonnie? He is a Pomeranian breed, very cute" said the Manager. He is going to choose me, I am his dog and he is my person thought Choco happily. Finally, he is going to have a home and an owner!. "I dunno, I haven't decide yet. They all look so cute to me. I'll decide wen the time comes" answer Tommy.

Choco's heart sank so low. He thought Tommy is his person. If he could choose, he will definitely choose Tommy and he thought Tommy felt the same way too. Clearly, Choco is one of Tommy's many options. He is not a CHOICE, but one of the OPTIONS. Choco felt so sad...suddenly he felt a cold drops of water running down his cheeks, what is this? he thought, tears???? weird, he never knew a dog could cry...

16 October 2009

DeArEst LiFe, I LOVE yOu

It is already 7.30 am...the little voice in my head keep on repeating 'Syafiqah, kate nak pegi beli nasi lemak!!@#*%@!!'. I seriously dun understand why it is so mad, I have no mood to go down and walk to that nasi lemak stand...besides, I wasn't THAT hungry *stomach growling*...uh oh! what the heck!!!!...I am not in the mood okay. I just wana curl up in this bed where there's no worries, no trouble, no drama...just comfort, warmness and cozyness...hmm, I like this feeling...so safe. Blanket, hold me tightly please...I don't wana wake up, EVER!!!!

...tick tock...tick tock...tick tock...

So here I am, curling up in bed contemplating with my past, present and future. To tell u the truth, I really hate facing these 3 all at the same. But somehow, they always like to pick the same time to say 'Hi Syafiqah! U Suck!!!'. Okay okay, I noe guys...I messed up okay. Here I've wrote each of u a note...

Dear Past,
I am really sorry that I follow my intuition, my instinct and whatever else you like to call it. I should think more rationally, I should have listen to my brain instead of my heart. I should have leave and run away as far as I can when I still had the chance. I shouldn't have had this feeling. I should just put my heart in a cage, put it in a big black box and casts it away. I shouldn't care or spend so much time solving other people problem. I should be more self-centered and conservative. I should have been more focus in my studies. I should have studied really hard. I should add fuel to my passion for medicine instead of pouring it with water. I should be thinking about Ummi and Ayah more often as they are the ones who truly loves me unconditionally. I know I know....I've been walking off the track and I am trying to be on that right track again. I'm sorry for all the things that you regret, I know you have hold so many grudges against me and that I am always making u feel disappointed. Truly dear past, I am sorry...

*****

Dear Present,
Truly, u are my favourite as you are my best friend. You are the one that I have every power to control right now. You are with me everyday, you are always there for me and I get to see you a lot. I know I have done something with Past that is affecting you right now and that you are really sad watching me waste so much of my time on things that will just end up in vain. All of those effort, all of those tears, all those time worrying. I am sorry, as you are the one that have to watch me throw my life away. I am really sorry that I spent so much time holding on to the past and worrying about the future that I don't appreciate you, or make you feel a little bit more valuable. I promise that I will change. I know my priority now, I am gonna move on. I am gonna concentrate on treating you right, I will fight for you so that Past will not be dissapointed with me and Future will have faith that I am gonna promise it something good..no great..no EXTRAORDINARY!!! Yes, I promise you this Present...I am gonna make it up to you. I am gonna LOVE my self and my life so that you will be proud of me alright? If I forgot u can always throw rocks at me or something so that I will climb up on the right track again.

*****

Dear Future,
I really can't wait to see you, I guess that is why I can't stop thinking about you. To me you are like a box of mysteries that I just can't wait to open. So tempting!. I know you are scared of me, you probably think that I am a stalker for being so obsessed with you. Well, I am NOT! I am just as scared as you do. I am scared of the unseen, the unknown...cause I like things that I know I have a power to control over. I am scared of you Dear Future...sometimes, I wish you could give me a clue on what you have in that box of mysteries for me. I know, you are mad at me because I am not appreciating Present, because it is seriously gonna affect you. I've promise Present that I'll be a better person, I will leave Past and learn whatever I can from it and try to be improve myself for Present. Future, one thing I know...I can't wait to go shopping and travel with you!!! haha...you are always so EXCITING!!!

*****

Dearest Life,
I am thankful that Allah swt has given me a chance to taste you. You are truly WONDERFUL...

Dear Readers
Here's is my 100th post
Appreciate your life, cause you only live in it once
You can't turn back time and change it
Make sure all of us has all the right tablet of life
Live it healthy, Smile and be Happy.

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