still no updates

the plan was....today, select pics and edit them to upload....then tomorow upload wif sakinah laptop. But I'm just too tired. Plus, sumbody reminds me that my heart was broken, smashed and being stepped upon....its painful and sad. Maybe things will never go anywhere. At least now...I've accept things. whatever happen it is for the best.

More updates in few days time....

Will try to catch up soon!

So many things to say...so many things has happened....but i've got no time to update. will try to update soon!!! in the mean time...i'm busy living my wonderful life. I'm truly blessed...Alhamdullilah...

To Zatil Adilah : hunn!!! a few days left to ur big day!! enjoy ur last few hours of single-hood to da maxXXxx. LOve ya girlfren!!!

You said it, I get it, I guess it is what it is...

i was only looking for a shortcut home 

but it's complicated, so complicated 

somewhere in this city 

is a road i know where 

we could make it 

but maybe there's no making it now 

too long we've been denying 

now we're both tired of trying 

we hit a wall and we can't get over it 

nothing to relive 

it's water under the bridge 

you said it, i get it 

i guess it is what it is 

i was only trying to bury the pain 

but i made you cry 

and i can't stop the crying 

was only trying to save me 

but i lost you again 

now there's only lying 

wish i could say it's only me 

too long we've been denying 

now we're both tired of trying 

we hit a wall and we can't get over it 

nothing to relive 

it's water under the bridge 

you said it, i get it i 

guess it is what it i 

here it comes ready or not 

we both found out 

it's not how we thought that it would be, how it would be 

if the time could turn us around 

what once was lost 

may be found for you and me, for you and me 

too long we've been denying 

now we're both tired of trying 

we hit a wall and we can't get over it 

nothing to relive it's water under the bridge \

you said it, i get it 

i guess it is what it is 

i was only looking for a shortcut home 

but it's complicated so complicated

~lifehouse

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Dear you,

I lied, I am not over you. I can't stop hoping. I miss you. I miss talking to you about everything. I thought I am fine without you. I thought that I will be okay...maybe I will. But at times, I will remember those memories and I just can't let it go. Is it true? You are into her? Is she better than me. Cause I still remember you in everything I do. I noe I sound pathetic....I sounded like all of the girls that I despised...I am pathetic and lame. But can I just be that girl tonite? I can't be strong all the time. I deserved to let my sorrow out evry once in a while, right?. Tomorrow I will be strong, tomorrow I'll try to be okay. Just so you know....I am trying, to get over you, to stop missing you...to stop caring so much. But it is not that easy.....I guess certain thgs just be a part of who we are. Whatever it is, I always wish for the best things in life for you....thank you for being a part of me. ILY

Amateur Transplant

I noe this is a bit overdue...but I dun rely have time to blog, and final is over and I am preparing for convocation....just totally forget about this video. Anyhoot, only now I think these 2 videos are funny...I guess this is the perks of finishing ur FINAL exam...hohoho...yeah i noe TBB ayat nie...enjoy!!! ;P

Walk the talk...please..

U need to know your priority in life, that is what my parents thought me. While buying things or doing things, you must always weigh the benefit, the need and desire. If that thing you could do it again next time, get it next time..or can be associated to 'NEXT TIME" in anyway it is clearly not a thing that you should prioritize. What's important... FAMILY. Yeah, family always come first. Then, close friends : best friends, people that matters.Organize yourself, time is limited....so i heard. When you PRIORITIZE, meaning you put it forward...no matter what happen, what comes, what people say...you know, that thing comes first no matter what. Like let say, a person important to you have this one in a life time event coming, you make time, especially if that person already give u a heads up a month before. Or let say you wanna have fun, but  your  house need a serious spring cleaning...you clean your house first, then go and have fun. Its not wrong at all...every body need a happy time, endorphin keeps you mentally healthy. When a friend comes telling you stuff about ur bestie, you ask your bestie first what really happen.....instead of jumping into conclusions. When your bestfriend is having a rough time, and you are out having fun with ur buddies, it wouldnt hurt just to hear ur bestie out for awhile instead of making ur bestie wait and solve the problem on her/his own. Or let say you are short of money, weighing between buying things for your love one that you know very important for her/him right now or your own need to spend it on your own leisure.....put your own need behind, we can postponed leisure for later. You see, the people who are easily hurt are the ones who loves you the most. Sadly, these people are the ones we often took for granted when they are the ones who really deserved your extra attention. Doesn't matter whether you are a parent, a child, a sibling, a grandparent, a teacher, a friend. Please... just know your priority....cause if you don't, you are in serious danger of losing trust, faith and respect of a person that is very important in your life. Though I know...we are all human, we can't runaway from mistakes.....but we often make mistakes only when we are not thinking things through...

Taking A high road

*its not wrong to stand in what you believe in* 

New HeArt-tHrobBiNG XY

Robert Downey Jr!!!!!

Yes, IRONMAN people

he is SUPER HOT and SEXXAY!!!!

I'm in LOVE, seryesly in LOVE

*blush*

Post-Mortem Professional 3 Exam

Hahah...baru sekarang ade konfiden nak cakap pasal exam...anyway, I still think I screwed up my MCQ pretty badly....my clinical exam was pretty okay....better than MCQ I must say, tho I dapat the Dean as my examiner, but I got an O&G case...so there wasn't much that he could asked from me....phew!!! but to say that I escape his questions all together mmg silap besar la kan...its the Dean, so what do you expect??? People in UKM used to faint okay at the sight of him being one of the examiner....that's why they dun invite him as their external examiner anymore.

So for long case, I got uncomplicated fibroid case in which the lady actually presented with acute urinary retention....but the lady was very obese...her BMI was 37. Her face looked rather plethoric to me...when, I first saw her....I actually thought that maybe this is a case of Cushing Syndrome or PCOS ker.....heheh....I was pretty lucky I guess, cz the patient was very nice, very cooperative.....and the history was pretty straight forward as she dun really have any other medical condition.....just some psychological issues as she has yet failed to conceived with her 2nd husband even though she already had 2 children with her 1st husband.....so biaselah org lelaki kan, nak anak...then ugut2 the wife if takde anak jugak die nak kawen lain. To me la very inappropriate kot the husband, dahla die yg tak bagi operation fibroid tu 8 years ago....dan dan nie nak salah kan isteri die pulak....she is already 42 kowt, tho mmg la still can conceived but quite dangerous kowt....haihh... so anyway...the long case I think I did pretty okay, as Dr. Punithan pun sgt baik..hehe

For short case, I dapat case Thalassemia in Peads (kinda expect this already) that i was mistaken for lipoma at first -.-, macula sparring unilateral partial 3rd cranial nerve palsy for medicine and right complete irreducible indirect inguinal hernia for surgery....Okla, the examiners are all nice, tho I have a feeling that they were having such a great time laughing at me...but I think it was okay..hehe. So that's all about my exam...dah abes dah pun...for more info blh check out this website in which my batch buat to kumpulkan soalan for future use :

clinical exam PRO III Batch of 2005/2010 UiTM

The Date that I'll Always Remember..

*30 April 2010*

The date that I'll definitely remember forever. The Dean of our faculty said, As years come by...you'll remember this day exactly as it is. You'll remember what you were wearing, you'll remember exactly where you were sitting, who is beside you and what you were doing. Truthfully, that moment was still playing inside my head. It feel so unreal. I'll will never forget sitting in the centre of that Level 1 Lecture Hall of Selayang Campus of UiTM Medical Faculty. Beside me were Masy and Anis (now, they are both doctors too >_<), I was holding Masy's sweaty hand. I was really scared, I can feel my heart beating so fast as the Dean called our name one by one....all of our lecturers from Pre-Clinical to Clinical were there...all eyes were on us. I waited anxiously as the Dean turn to read the last page and at last...my name was called.... I, for the very first time, was so happy to be called by the Dean. Then, I turn to Masy who sed "Congratulations!!!". It felt like a dream, still feel like a dream. Next thing I know was tears streaming down my cheeks, hugging and congratulating my fellow friends, talking to my parents on the phone, and thanking all of the lecturers.

Gosh!!! thanking all of the lecturers is never gonna be enough, I think. I owed so much to them. Only Allah swt could ever repay for what they have done for me. All of those times, they spent teaching me, even when I was scolded, I feel that all of those moments are very valuable....in fact, all of the memories that I have for these 5 years are very valuable. It seems like yesterday I was asking Prof. Is about how many times are we allowed to fail, before we were thrown out.....Alhamdullilah, I managed to finished this battle at last. Finally, all those late night studying, all those tears and worries, all those time that has been sarificed....they were all worth it!!! *\(>_<)/*

After our result announcement, we were all gathered in front of the library, for photo session. What really moved me were, the lecturers are all acting like we are a part of them already. Dato' Amin was even being very comical....can u imagine, he said "Okay now...we took a freestyle picture, okayy readday everyone?? Let's do it!" together with the hand gestures and everythg, I cld not help but to smile...heheh. The most memorable moment on that day was, taking picture with Dato' Raja plus hugging her and having her said "Nanti, be a gud doctor tau" with a smile while holding my arm...Gosh!!!! seryesly, I just can't stop smiling thinking of that moment. Another best part was, while I was thanking Dr. Norsham, she sed "Nanti, come back and join us as a lecturer yea" I was practically nodding my head so hard on that statement, plus, she is an O&G specialist...so u know where I was coming from kan? huhu.....InsyaAllah...I hope to come back to UiTM as a lecturer too. But, my journey is just starting, I still have a long looonggg LOOOOONGGG way to go...I do hope to become a good, safe, competent Muslim doctor along the way too...InsyaAllah....amin. 

Dr. Siti Nur Syafiqah Azahari

i owed this name to 

my parents and my family who has never stop praying and supporting me. My lecturers, for all the knowledge that they shared, support and time that they've sacrificed  for me. My bestfriends : Mirae, Mimione, Far, Jenny,and Shoebie who has been my constant strength, Mirae seryesly thank you for all those advice and phone calls...Zatil who has been there for me thru all of my good times and bad times, I owed so much to you girlfren, I dunno what will I do without you, only Allah swt can ever repay for what you have done for me....tho I noe u really wana take arts...but I'm just really glad that u did not pursue art, cause I needed you here...and thank you so much for being here with me, yes, i loikes u A LOT bestie!!!! haha . To my housemates (Masy, Jana, Anis, Min, Eja, Aisyah and Murni) who has been there to check on me and make sure that I am still alive!!! To all of my friends that has been practicing PE with me, thank you for all the knowledge that uguys have shared...really thank you so much!!! And lastly... Hazim my mentor/bestfriend, thank you for always believing in me, you are always in my prayer too.

with Dr. Adli

with Dato' Raja

with Prof. Gassan

with Dr.Salmi

with my study group sepanjang study weeks nie Dr.Rahmatul and Dr. Zatil, thank you so much ugys esp for keeping me sane hehehe...so happy to be graduating together!!! =)

MBBS 220 3rd BATCH UiTM 2005/2010

CONGRATULATIONS DOCTORS!!!!!

-yes, all of you deserved a pat on the back-