One day

i'll find you...someone who keep me fighting for the better

A friend of destiny

After this incident hit me. I could not help but wonder....will I ever have the chance to love you at all. If I don't....I just want to say....I love you, I love you very much!!!!

its me

Lamanyerr tak conteng2 kat sini kan....

ntahla...bila rasa tak conteng mesti nya ada bnda yg tak kene...mestinya ada satu rasa mcm something bad is happening. Truthfully...I am in a position yg sangat tak suka nak kerja sekarang nie....I rasa beban sangat kerja. I  rasa sgt tak hepi. I rasa mcm tak suka jmpa org kat tempat kerja. Rasa ikhlas dalam diri untuk bekerja makin lama makin pudar....i especially dun like my bosses in medical, they are all snakes, gunting dalam lipatan. I'm sorry but this is the truth page...I have make a promise to myself that this is not the place where I tell lies. Like how I did with my parents and certain people in my life. I don't care okay. I just really hate this department and I just can't wait to leave. I just hope i can pass my assessment. I rather do O&G for the rest of my life than being in medical....

Oh well I can't be one very ungrateful person right...there must be something that I really like about this life...I love the fact that I have all the love that I could ever wish for. Though it is not perfect, I am not home everyday...my sister is faraway in Kedah...I hardly talk to my girls, hardly ever hangout with Zatil and the only one who is constant on my hangout list is Hazim. Totally love him for that....seriously, though we are bestfriend and I love hanging out with him...I can't help to think that maybe I'm stopping him from having his own social life. Nothing is worst that one clingy person. I hope I'm not clingy. Love life...hmm still no luck, maybe I dun really need it yet....may be I am comfortable with my static life and its windy road....or maybe I know that there's nothing that I can do or shud do....maybe i am really believing in faith....destiny. At least I know this time...my heart as fragile as it is....I am keeping it protected. I won't let myself go thru that phase again....I won't let myself be heartbroken again....tho I think the perfect person for you is me...and you are to me, I think Allah swt know better....

I won't fight anymore. I won't force. I will just let it be...anything happen....it is for the best. At least I know....I do love you...once, with all my heart. I still care about you now...whatever happen in the future...I have no grudge against you....or fate. I'll accept it with open heart..

oh yeahh!!! FYI...I love pearl...haha randomness =P

my PATHETIC drama

Hey Fie...
Hows is it living in that adult path of life?

IT SUCKSS!!!!

URGHHHhh!!! I wish i had my car here...

my problem is.....
no transport to send my laundry
i am living the shift system this week...which means i hv plenty of free time but i end up in front of this computer playing SIMS 3... okay maybe la it is not bad at all. But, it is not productive okay, i wana go and cut my hair, i wana go shopping, watch Johnny Depp and Angelina Jolie in The Tourist.

My source of PROBLEM : No transport

My age : 24

If  I am anymore pathetic than this...I shud just bury myself... seriously
I seriously cannot take it. I mean.... not being able to stuff that you have time to do because some stewwwpid limitations. I mean...I am so capable of doin all those thgs alone....I dun need people to teman me....

Goal : Get used to driving a CAR ASAP!!!!!!!

2011

It's time for the new year...2011 is here. Let's just sum up everything that has happen in 2010. I have to say that 2010 has been a great year for me....despite all the tears, all the hurt, pain, hardship that I've gone through...I have to say that I've managed to find joy in the end. I am trully blessed by Allah s.w.t. I am surrounded by people who love me...Thinking of what has happen, I still can't let it go...the hurt, the pain....it is still fresh in my mind . Never I want to feel that way again. Never I want to let my self be that vulnerable again. 2010 has really thought me a lot....how to be mature, how to live independently, how to accept responsibility that I am not ready to carry....I think 2010 has really thought me about maturity. About how to appreciate life, take it as it comes.....love every single day that you are blessed with. Cause nothing last forever......so we should appreciate it while it lasts...I have no regrets in 2010. I am proud to who I've become. I have to say...that now...life seems almost perfect, i'm happy....i feel blessed...no more emptiness. Maybe some call this a feeling of contentment...i dunno....maybe it is... But I also realized that this feeling, this state...it won't last forever....so for now....i'm just hoping to live this moment a little while longer....

For once, I think I have no unfulfilled resolutions..so its time to just make new ones

1. To be a better servant to Allah swt

2. To be a better daughter, sister, friend, doctor and person...

3. To find my self that special someone....if Allah swt wills it... I think the time feels right already...

4. To be able to fly thru all of my posting smoothly

5. To take better care of my health n savings...

Hoping for all the good things in 2011....May Happiness be mine =)