Full moon sucks!

Today I'm just sad and and dissappointed. It seem like eventho I tried to suck it in watever it is that hv hurt me. Even tho i tried, at last other ppl just dont really hv that patience to put up with me. That is the most hurting n sad thg about today.

What is inside my head lately

You noe lately I am just obsess thinking about how all these specialist have the will to continue in this profession that I think I hate (at times) for years.....seriously, I am still wondering how to continue working from day to day. I am seriously amaze watching all this hardworking people. I sometimes wonder what get them going. I know everyone says no job is nice cz working itself is not nice. But these people are passionate. How can I be like them?


to be cont...

"PERFECT MOMENTS"

This post is inspired by somebody very dear to me who believe in a perfect moment like these...

Okay,  so you remember how when you were a little girl...you imagine this life is like a fairy tale where all you have to do is just be this really perfect, nice and sweet person and look pretty until one day your super charming prince come to swept you from your feet. and you know the unique thing is all of these couples will always have their "PERFECT MOMENTS" you know where everything just fall to places, where everything just seem so wonderful almost dream like....moments such as these....

You get what I mean right, moments when the prince realize that there's something there...perfect moments where you just expect him to kiss her, say I LOVE YOU and that kinda stuff. But, funny thing is...if you look closely, the prince never did kiss the princess or say the 3 words at  all of these "perfect moments". Interesting right? Yeah...I noticed this after my fren told me how finding that "perfect moment" is important for one person to express how one feel about someone. I have to say, I think it is rather sweet and cute for someone to think that way....just like this cute, vulnerable bunny rabbit who just don't realize how perfectly naive and innocent it is....that you just feel like you want to give it a hug and protect it closely. I personally dream of that too...that "perfect moment" where it caught you by surprise and a sudden realization of how much love you have for someone. It is just seriously sweet, like over the TOP sweet. But even fairy tales show us that life aren't always beautiful....there's Ursula, Gaston and all the town folks, and there's also that old lady who wanna look pretty. And...in all of these fairy tales....like I said before, they only managed to express their feelings after something nearly took their loved ones away. Why does it have to be that way? Why does it have to come only after something bad happen? Why is it that even in fairy tales...it shows how human won't fight for something until they are about to lose it. Yeah, you'll never know what you have till you lost it , interesting isn't it...to noticed this. I guess what fairy tales have shown me is that even "perfect moment" don't come more than once. We ourself have to create that perfect moment, fight for what we want and create our own path of happiness...well I guess, I think I've left  all you dreamers out there with something to think about.....live your dreams love. =)

10 April 2011

So as we all know I went to Bruno Mars concert last Sunday. It was really amazing. He is really a talented artist. He know how to get his audience moving. Truthfully, it was a really lively concert. I had a great fun! Hope to  go to his concert again if he ever come back to Malaysia ^^v

 the crowd waiting for Mr. Bruno

Bruno Mars!!! (this is the best pic I have of him, darn!! I'm so short!!)

and..I'm glad to be spending it with my amazing bestfriend

* favorite moment*

I have to say...my favorite moment of the night was when Bruno sang "Count on me". Something about it kinda touch my soul you know, maybe the lyrics really meant something to me. And when he was singing it, the whole hall was singing it together with him putting their hands in the air swaying to the beautiful melody. Like the song actually feel like something living, something so real. What's make it more beautiful I guess was because I was standing there with my bestfriend, and "Count on me" are like our friendship song. So standing there with him just make it feel so much more meaningful than it is to anybody else I think. Like we are dedicating the song to each other. I almost feel like saying "Bestfriends forever Hazim, BFFE always!!!!" Tho all of us know how i think about FOREVER right? Anyway, I think no words can really describe how meaningful and special that moment was to me. It is definitely gonna be that moment that you capture in your mind and live for as long as you want it to live. Yeah ! one of my most special moment indeed!!! =)

i knew

i shoudnt jinx it.....

Happy Meal of Life

I'm blogging from my phone, can you believe it? I suddenly feel very strong feeling to blog. I have a lot of thing going on lately that i want to blog about... like i went to Bruno Mars consert last Sunday. It was really awesome! He was a really great performer. Okay i'll talk more about it later. What I really wanna talk about now is...I am happy. Why I am happy....I duno, I just feel peaceful. I am suddenly not worried. I don't feel like I have to catch something. Like I am on a verge of losing something. I feel free....and I am happy. Okay, I have sed that already.   Haha...ok I don't wana jinx this feeling. But I myself don't really understand why...I'm not in love or anythg ok. I thk I've just chase away yet another guy who is trying to approach me. I dunno why, dont even ask me why. Cz sometimes why I do certain thgs, I myself cant explain. I guess, maybe the truth is I am not interested. Maybe I've found everythg that I want. Tho I think maybe I am risking myself here, but as of now... nobody really made me feel like I need to be with anybody right now. I dunno, I am kinda content? For once, I am not obsess about my feeling. For once i feel like i am ready to let go. I dont feel the need to resist anythg. Just try to live n be happy. Cz now, I have nothing for me to be sad about. I mean... not really unless I really want to. Ok I feel so weird boasting about happiness here cam gyle menunjuk la pulak. Just to tell u I am not trying to boast. Its just that it's nice to look back and see how I feel bout things. Kinda give me back a moment to reflect on myself.

All I am trying to say is.... Alhamdullilah...

wait for it....

Often you hear this....wait till...wait for....

Seriously, today I'm just tired of this. Life is short people. What are you waiting for? Till what comes??? The moment my dad said "wait till your sister finished her studies. Then we go somewhere nice". I just can't take it anymore....I've been putting up with this "waiting" for quite sometime now that i feel like I wana scream.

No, I don't wana wait for destiny. I dun want to wait till I can get a long holiday to go to Aussie. Newsflash! I'll never have a long break. And for goodness sake!!!! I don't want to wait till my sister abes blaja baru nak go and have vacation. Ok we wait, then what? Probably I will not be here anymore. Probably, I'm working faraway from home by then. To wait, does that even mean that my parents will have enough leave to take?  Do you realize that our time is short? God forbid, what if tomorrow I'm destined to die????

I'm seriously tired of waiting...of putting thgs off for later. Why cant we get it done now??? If we all working so hard to get our work done. Why does we all have to put our life on hold???? why???? Allah s.w.t did not teach us to procrastinate.....even in performing our solat, we as muslims were thought to get it done asap. So why, must we wait for anythg??? why???? anybody that have an answer please do share with me. WAITING is tiring people, not to mention it is a waste of time....if we don't take our chances. we might not find it again in the future. Seriously, I don't want to be the people who said " I should have". Time does not wait...so why should we???