You are ALWAYS right

Swear.... Not gonna say anthg ever again!!!!!

Cheesecake!

Saya sangat tembam mcm hamster..

Sekian...

Doink mmg suka buat muka saya jd mcm ni. tribute to fat face application

Nak Tahu Tak?

Huhuhu

Assalammualaikum...

MODE : GIRL TALK

Lama kan tak muncul kat sini.....

I am just very caught up with life, life pun very tiring jerr lately nie....Now, actually I'm using my ward computer...I'm doing double shif tonite cz nak off esok...cz saye nak balik rumah...dah lama tahu saya tak balik rumah...nak dekat 3 minggu.... huhu lama lahh tu...rindu ok.

So nak meng'update' kan diri la kejap. Currently, I'm working in Surgical Department. It has been almost 3 weeks that I've joined this Department. For now, I think it is quite interesting....MO2 pun baik2 :)) rajin mengajar...so I think it is goin to be a fun experience here. But, I mmg tak ske la nite review die pnat oo...every other day kn dtg...serupa jerr mcm oncall. Tp soon nak start shif system katanye....tp I rase I tak suka la shif system nie....bukannye apa...now, dgn keadaan HO yg walaupun ramai dari time Tok Kaduk dulu...still byk bnda nak buat. Plus, diorang kate nak potong critical allowence....waaaa mane bolehh...RM 700 tu....haihh dah la duit oncall pun tak de. Lama2 kerja doktor pun sama jer mcm kerja2 buruh...kerja tak setimpal dgn gaji...but I pun dunno lah, what really gonna happen. We just wait and see k.

Lately nie, mmg takde masa sgt nak shopping....nak layan all those fashion blogs that I used to go to....until rase mcm I have no particular interest pulak. But, baru2 nie....I ade masa byk sikit la...so pegi la tgk2 fashion blogs, online shopping blogs....I was so into it that I go online for hours...feel so happy sgt. U noe mcm feeling of excited too. I found a new blogger that interest me...nnt one day I'll tell you...she's Malaysian and an engineer. I just love her style...seriously so jealous ok with all these fashionista....they are creative and their style just amazed me. I guess Yeah! I love Fashion....but I simply dun have talent in it. For Syafiqah Azahari to be a fashionista I dunno la berapa zaman baru berjaya agaknye...hehehe

Life currently sgt penuh dgn happiness....hik hik...nak kene jelas kan ke knape? *blushing* Ala...faham2 sendiri la yek.... ;)))

Tak lama lagi dah nak Ramadhan, rase excited sgt....its like you can almost feel the aura everywhere...the weather also mcm sayu sgt. I hope I'll be able to perform my ibadah better this month....Kalau boleh nak cuba khatam kan Quran. Hmmm I hope I'll be able to. InsyaAllah....

Oklah tu je update kali ni...Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan...Moga kita semua berjaya mencari keberkatanNya...Amin

random mandom moment :

I truly feel beautiful when you told me that I am beautiful because you always said it when I had no make up on. ;P

and I always type out LOVE as in L.O.V.E cause i think L.U.V have no meaning

<3

chow! XOXO

craving for blogging

NK BLOGGING!!!!!! TP NOW TADE MASE ....BALIK TAGGING SGT PNAT  =(

Lesson of Love

Moment of truth : I don't know how to be in a relationship. XS

I know what kind of a psycho person make this kinda statement? But seriously, this is my only space of comfort and no lies. I have to let this out. Being in a relationship might sound easy but I guess it is not as simple as I thought it would be. I have learn that I have a lot to learn. I seriously don't know how to say it any other way....  'I don't know how to be in a relationship' is by far the most perfect statement to describe my condition right now.

In making sure a person know that you care, that you love them, that they meant a world to you...you need to be able to do more than just saying it, you need to show your love for a person  with action. That is what I've realized.....you need to do more than words. In my defense maybe I am not good in showing all this emotions because I'm just still scared....I don't want to get hurt like how I've before. That's why I've become more careful.... I just needed some time to come around. I'm trying to just fall slowly...taking things one step at a time. That is supposed to be a good thing right?

I dunno, I think I've become very bad in verbalizing and acting my feelings....maybe it have lead me to hurt the person I love most. Maybe I could be better. I don't know how I become like this. I love him so much, no doubt....if I could, I want to have him here with me every second of the day....but, I can't. I wanna be an independent person, who is strong in my own way. So that he knows that he can count on me, so that he knows that I will be okay even without him around so that he can go and follow his dreams. I don't want to be a person that will be a burden to him, I don't want to be a clingy person that choke him from freedom. I want to be able to be his backbone...that support him during difficult times.

Saying all this might be easy but making sure that person know how much you love them without making yourself look like a complete back-boneless is a task. All in all, I just hope he know...I love him so much. Having him loving me is like a dream. Seeing how much he love me make me feel truly touched, truly surreal. I guess I just don't realize how much he love me until today. I am surprised even to see this person that I've never seen in him before, all of this is new to me. But, how can I ever make him understand that I'm truly grateful that he open up himself to me like this. I've a lot to learn and I need time....I just hope he can be a bit more patient because I am truly working on it as best as I can.

So I guess, Step 3 is : Learn to make the person you love feel loved...